When everything dissipates to nothingness....

What does nothingness devolve into?

I feel like bits and pieces of me are being split asunder and drifting away into space...

And I'm being reduced to nothing.

Do I search for them again?

Do I not?

Have I the strength to carry my weight? 

No... Wait...  i haven't anymore.

The spirit of nothingness grows bigger than ever. Heh.

I meet a lot of people. I don't care if they treat me as nothing. I don't give a shit. If I never mattered to you before, I don't see why I should ever matter to you.

I'm acquainted with many; I don't care if they don't know me anymore. I do not seek to occupy the tiniest bit in their hearts or minds. Perhaps they weren't exactly etched in mine either.

I love many... But my heart has dissolved. My soul no longer is mine.

Anything I do from this point is pretty much pivotal I suppose...

Nobody else

That feeling of emptiness engulfs me.
Why should I be surprised, loneliness knows me by name.

I'm in this dark, lonesome abyss. And I'm contented. For tis a place of familiarity. I am ironically comforted to be a resident of this chasm everyone fears.
Yet, it brings me peace.

My voice resounds, but only the echoes of misery answers me.

That feeling of constant craving for a divine something that shall make me whole.
No, not again. But for the first time.

I've been dating too long.
So long that saying or even texting things like, 'I'm thinking about you' seems so cheesy and mushy it's embarrassing to make it known.

I mean, I'd be caught up with work and stuff. And all I want to do after work is wind down and if time permits, hang out with Robs over dinner and dessert.

Dropping mushy notes in between is seemingly lame per se coz honestly, it doesn't happen that often now that we have been dating for so long...
Which is kind of sad if you think about it...

But we still go with 'Loves you!' And 'Miss you!'. And kissy emoticons.
Quite succinctly, though not as mushy. Heh.

Let's see what being mushy for a bit might get me...