I feel like dying...

:(

Project. Student Council. Exams. Chronic Dreams. UGLY ZITS. DISGUSTING FLABS. Dry hair. Peeling Skin.


HEH.

Ah well...


Just yesterday, J asked, "What are you doing?"

"Being Happy." was my reply.

J contemplated for a bit and decided that he liked my answer.

I do know that I've been perpetually complaining and feeling miserable because of how "bad" my life is. Truth is, I'm as contented as can be. It's just that by certain standards, I do strive for a 'better life', as I would call it.

Perhaps ppl are just often too cynical.

Ah well... simple exchange of words could really make someone's day. Even if it's just a smile, or a "thank you". How bout holding the lift door for someone? Anything really!
I do appreciate minor things like that. I get peeved when some rude arse steps on my toes without apologising (when he knows it esp). Happened many times.

Oh wells. Of course, I do meet nice ppl. Im grateful for all the nice people that God has led me to. I guess the "bad" ones are just a test for my patience.

Do not belittle compliments. Be generous with them. I'm practising that myself.

Quoting Teddy "Kareen, I think you're really lovely."

Me, "Aw really? Thank you! I think so too!"

LOL.

Ok, maybe not. I meant complimenting others.

Which I did. "Teddy, I think you're cute too. Really."

Honestly, I had a very long day and was feeling gloomy and all. That short conversation of no more than 5 minutes really did magic.

That made 2 happy ppl. Then agn, Teddy's always happy. :)


So there u go. Make someone's day now and start giving compliments liberally! Of course, do mean what u say.

Crimson river flows again.

Been lying in bed, wide-eyed.

I see dust particles settling on my keyboard now.

To take the pill... or not to take...

I'm not myself today. Must be the hormones.

Dang. I've a huge ugly zit on me chin.

Cant tell if im hungry or havin cramps.

This is sad.

I cant tell where the pain is coming from.

I'm better off asleep.

Let's not forget the pain's keepin me up.

I'm physically drained, my head's feeling light.

Class95's playing awfully nice songs.

I could listen to it all day till FD and Glenn comes on.

Oh. And stand at attention when the National Anthem plays at 6am.

Probably in a bit if this goes on.

I'm really tired, but the pain lingers still. :(

The yellow pill...

I should abstain really.

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Screaming out loud in my reverie.


I hatechoo, C.R. I HATECHOO!
Go away soon. I beg of u. :(

RMIT BASH 2008- THE VERY WHITE BLING BLING PARTY

Was a blast! I'm elated. Really.

It's finally over! The turn-out was awesome! Almost everything had gone smoothly. But hey, nothing's ever perfect.

I can heave a big sigh now. Xept, i'm needed in sch so very early tmr morning for some packin up of the sponsor items fr the pageant.

Damn.

CommLaw in the morning, MCE test in the afternoon, rushin dwn to zouk str after... standing all the way until the bash event ended. On heels. OH! i was the curtain lady too! Backstage was chaotic. We'd to clear everything for the public crowd to tk over zouk. I TELL U. ALL THESE AMOUNTED TO MY EXTREME EXHAUSTION. I was in no mood AT ALL to party after the bash ended. Was at the dance floor with the rest of the councillors for a bit. Perhaps I've danced a lil... but I really felt like goin home. Clubbing isnt my thing.

Alrights. That was my second time in a club, but I've valid reasons for both occasions. And is fun only becoz of the company. Period. Me no party animal.

I think I was mistaken by a whole bunch of people for being Vivi's mistress. -_- Picture this-- tiny me (relatively) sitting beside Vivi with his huge fur coat and blings (think Pimp daddy) whilst the others went off for smoke, pee, dance, whatever.
A group of strangers gave us long lingering looks. Heh. They can stare all they want.

I proceeded to poke Pimp Daddy's tummy.


When the councillors went to party, I shifted to Rob's table. I was sipping just like... half a glass of wine and I felt "high" already. Cudnt quite hold my head up. I'd so wanted to leave after 11pm really. But it wasnt until 2am that we left.

Honestly. It was a blast. I feel.
Just that I'm too tired to celebrate after the bash.

HAving a shower is a must! WHOA. I was dying of smoke inhaling at the sheltered area while dismantling our "WHITE PARTY" alphabets. Tempted greatly was I. I'd sharp wire meshes on my hands and I felt the urge to poke those smokers with them.


Slept at 3am. Probably dreamt for 1 hour or so-- about the bash, my own version. -_-

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Real thoughts for the night

-J.C should forget the forgettable.

-B.T should stop drinkin so much.

-I'm gonna have gastric ulcer soon.

-Isa's a wonderful co-worker.

-Rob's a really nice guy...

oh wells...






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10 things I hate about you.

Your...

1. ugly drawings
2. amateur "embroidery"
3. being ever so sweet
4. being so rational
5. initiative to close that chapter on us
6. sneaky acts
7. rendition of cny songs...
8. and other songs
9. ability to make me deny things I do remember

and most of all...

10. your decision to leave me in charge of the expired evidences of something u've given up on.



It was so not over

For a long while they were forgotten.
For tonight, pieced together and reminisced.

It was so not over.

For many nights, words u've said repeated like a broken record.
For so long, I'd held back.
For a bit, I relish the ironic situation

For now,with what's left of it...

in blurred vision, I've written my last entry.

Just so you know...


It was so not over...

I just realised, i've only posted 10 random notes.

Here's the other 10.


11. I'd always wake up at about 9am, regardless of my bedtime.


12. During year one, I thought Ben was hot. UNTIL... I got to know him. LOL. I've never told him this coz knowing him, his head will swell to the size of a hot air balloon. We've been thru all the CYC shits for our FYP. Ben's a great guy despite all his wanna-be acts which I do cringe at sometimes. "You're never alone partner, just know your directions. He's your guide, if u're willing to follow."


13. I can belch really loudly.


14. I like Alice in Wonderland. It's madness, everything's topsy-turvy. Curios-er and curios-er!


15. I will name my cats- "Dinkie Twinkle-toes" and "Cutie-Prince-Bob".


16. Flat hair totally annoys me. A bad hair day starts from a flat hair day.


17. Walking around in the city gives me a queer sense of traquility. The hustle and bustle around whilst I'm walking leisurely, taking in the sights... It's funny how is it that when I have a date with me (or Gdine for that matter), weird things (albeit pleasant 80% of the time) come our way.


18. I don't like sleeping with the airconditioner on. I prefer the fan. Which is why I've nt been sleeping well for the past 1 yr coz my ceiling fan's in a bit of trouble and Mom refuses to call up the repairman to get it fixed. Argh.


19. I wanna shit but I don't wanna shit.


20. If I'm ever gonna be a scientist (Which i seriously doubt so since I've dropped Science), I'd be doing R&D on cloning. I will!




I'm suppose to pass on this thing. I dunno who reads this but I'd jus pick a few.

1. Victoria. AGAIN. I like her random-ness. Cracks me up.
2. JeeCheng.
3. Sugi Yang Daniu.
4. Sean Lim