"Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."
-Matthew 26:41

If the temptation persists, kill that which is tempting you!
I can't bear to kill the TV though... my poor TV...

Because I'm left cold and clueless.
In dire need to make sense of my essay...

And then I look down and gazed upon WHUMMY.

!!!


I shud be 5 months pregnant from the look of it.

I'd stare into space while bugs will land on me.

I need to do something about my hair because they're falling off in dozens!

At this rate, I'd be pregnant AND going thru chemotherapy.

All the more reason why ppl should give up their seats to me. Wherever.

U asked me why. I've eluded being blatant. I think U know why. That's how it is.

It only gets BETTER. NOT.

Damn it. If I were to be pregnant... Obviously, I'm having a bloody miscarriage.

To hell with CNY '10. It's turned into a bloody affair.

AND I'M BLARDY OUTTA NUROFEN! DAMIT!!!!






And to hell with 'em zits.


I'm not even done with the bloody spring cleaning. Why don't I just smear my discharged blood on the wall just to mark this bloody day.

ARGH.


And nobody is to tell me "Aww, I'm sure it isn't all that bad..." and that kinda crap. Coz u don't bloody have a uterus that will cause u this much agony!!!!
I swear if anybody so much as to touch me right now I'll stab his face with a pen.


!@#$%^&*()_

WHO IS CALLING ME NOW?! Damn that ringtone. Like someone's holding a bloody funeral..

Heh.

Something I remembered...

Yesterday, I took the train during rush hour after shopping with JC and Gi.

No seats available of course. I stood by the metal railings and read my book. Minutes later, an uncle right in front of me tapped me on my shoulder and offered me his seat.
I declined nicely, coz I thought someone else who's more in need of it might want it. Next thing I know, the uncle sat back on it.

Here's when I got extremely puzzled.

WHY DID HE OFFER ME HIS SEAT?!?!

Certainly not because I was carrying a lot of things...

Then seconds later I registered that he thought I'm PREGNANT.

LOL!

Gee.

Ok, I guess I do looked kinda pregnant. I was wearing my sister's really baggy brown overall dress. It does look somewhat like a maternity frock. And the fact that I had a lot to eat with JC and Gi... didn't help my tummy from protruding to what I'd consider "a three-months pregnant bump"

Heh.

Time to think about that laid off fitness regime. I've nt ran one bit ever since the ten-km marathon.

According to Meda's cool weighing machine. I'm 2 Kgs above my ideal weight, I've like 28.8% body fats, my arms are flabby, my thighs are FAT,my body's age is my age, and I'm a COW.

Oh scrap that, I don't lactate.
I might as well, since I'm 3 months' pregnant!

Am I getting fat?!

I could imagine my relatives going...

“你现在比较有肉！”

during CNY visitations...


I'm so going to buy more loose fitting clothes.

10th Feb

Odd it is to yearn for your arrival.

Be not mistaken for I'm scarcely anticipating your presence with open arms.
It's just something that has to happen...


For now, I suppose I am somewhat relieved to feel the familiar nagging ache.

I will not make peace with you.

No. Never.



Signed,

iHateYouForeverAndEverAndEVER!

Horoscopes. Ha!

Here's what I saw:

Week of February 1 - 7, 2010

Aquarius: Verbal naughtiness can ignite passion on Monday. Some doubts about your future could unhinge you on Tuesday. Meditating will help clarify and empower your direction. A class or spiritual gathering attracts/inspires romance on Wednesday. Love is complicated on Thursday and Friday. Romance can be found during a group activity, community event, or through a friend this weekend.

Pisces: Spending time with a lover or close friend brings delight on Monday. Some self-doubt about your desirability (or sex life) can arise on Tuesday, so focus on your strengths. Romance kicks into high gear on Thursday and Friday, so reveal what's in your heart. Sharing your knowledge or expertise in a public gathering attracts romance this weekend.

Aries: Your partner may go off the rails on Tuesday, so strive for a balanced perspective. If you're solo, some doubts about your ability to attract a partner may arise. Being aware of negative thinking will help regain your equanimity. An intimate tryst fires you up Thursday or Friday. An exotic ambiance or activity heats up romance this weekend.

Taurus: Your sensuality draws admirers on Monday, when romance may hold a surprise. Love may not feel worth the effort on Tuesday, when feelings are turbulent. Your naughty side makes you irresistible toward the middle of the week. A dash of daring -- both in and out of the bedroom -- revs up romance this weekend.

Gemini: Intimacy may feel stilted or complicated at the start of the week, when taking drastic action can derail your relationship. An expression of your deepest feelings can get love back on track (or attract someone new) toward the middle of the week. Partnership energy soars this weekend, so plan (or be open to) a romantic rendezvous.

Cancer: Showing off your wit through a round of flirting inspires romance on Monday. Willfulness or moodiness can unhinge love on Tuesday, so take some quiet time to get centered. A lusty interlude is nearly assured on Thursday or Friday, when your mystique kicks into high gear. A healthy activity or charity project attracts/inspires romance this weekend.

Leo: You may need an attitude adjustment on Tuesday, when negative thoughts or argumentativeness can throw you off balance. Flirting brings delight on Wednesday. A cozy tryst at your abode heats up passion on Thursday. Willfulness or possessiveness can disrupt romance on Friday. You're all fired up Saturday night through Sunday, when your creativity sets romance ablaze.

Virgo: Your wit and expertise heighten your powers of attraction on Monday. A contretemps over money or power (or both) is likely on Tuesday. Overspending is likely as well. Learning something new inspires/attracts romance toward the middle of the week. A trip can inspire romance, too. Some wickedly naughty flirting prompts a passionate interlude this weekend.

Libra: A cozy tryst in a peaceful locale inspires love on Monday. Your confidence may be low on Tuesday, when self-criticism can throw you off track. Thinking of things to be grateful for will uplift you. A loving gift or gesture heightens romance mid-week. Daring to verbalize what's in your heart attracts/inspires a sexy interlude this weekend!

Scorpio: A group gathering can bring a romance on Monday. Your dark side (willfulness? jealously? manipulation?) comes out to play on Tuesday. Your magnetism draws a lusty tryst (or at least some lively flirting) mid-week. Love is either sweet or illusive on Friday. A dramatic expression of your desires makes passion percolate this weekend!

Sagittarius: Romance can be found through a work project or colleague on Monday. Negativity surrounds socializing on Tuesday, so strive to connect with people who support your dreams and goals. An intimate setting sets passion ablaze toward the middle of the week. You're a magnet for admirers Saturday night through Sunday, so dare to share who you (really) are!

Capricorn: Sharing your knowledge or spiritual beliefs can inspire romance on Monday. A conflict with someone in authority may challenge your personal power on Tuesday. Stay focused on your goals. Your sensuality makes you irresistible on Thursday and Friday, when love can be found during a group gathering. A natural or serene setting heightens romance this weekend!


Here's how I'd sum it up:
EVERYONE will probably be in a flirtatious mood on Monday, then transit into an abrasive one with Romance on Tuesday. Thursday and Friday will ignite sparks and heat up any form of lovey-doveyness. The week ends with romance on the high while u and your partner spend time doing something... romantic.


seriously???

I can write your weekly love forecast too.