Bowlines.

Just 3 more weeks before I start cavorting and celebrating the end of this semester. Exams will soon be over. Exams willl soon be over. It's like I'm tryin to convince myself.

There's much to do. There's work on every hand (sounds familiar huh.)

Already, I'm filling my trusted organiser with activities.
Hip's 21st this sat at PP, Mel's 21st (Which i cant go coz im having dinner with my family). Damnit.
After the exams- a couple more bday celebrations... and I'm gonna go on a very important date *beams*, the much anticipated chinese congregation's family church camp at Bintan, a likely road trip or some sort with Gdine... etc.

I'm s'pose to be continuing with HMT but I'm so sick of the biographies of dead ppl. Heh.


I've received shocking truths about a good friend of mine.
I rmb K's ever said "People don't change, you just never knew who they really were."

Is that how it is? I never knew him? I can only half agree. Thing is, change is constant. At this very moment, U'd be surprised at the amount of activities that are taking place in ur body. Just like when u're reading this entry, millions of neurons are at work. U'd soon either disagree or agree with what I've to say.

Change is constant, inevitable and part of life.
"Do you know who you are?"

Ah, think again.

Nobody knows us like God does.

Truth be told, I hadnt a definite answer for myself. I wont say I know Kareen Lee. Partly. Not entirely.

On different occasions, given different circumstances, faced with unique problems and dispositions... would u still say that U KNOW how u'd react? Typically, u may do this, or that. But realistically?

I'm stumped myself. Life's never predictable.


James 4: 14- Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.


I've etched this in my head for a long time now. Recently, Rob's quoted this verse back to me.
I'm still young, almost 22 now. Death isn't all so real to me.
Fact is, it is. Coz life is unpredictable. We always say "do ur best, and let God do the rest".

We'll always have to put our faith in God. Mom's told me-- the greater your faith, the greater your blessings.
Having seen her as a living example, I've believed that for a long time. I still do. Only, the flesh is weak and I find it hard to adhere to christian living sometimes.
But I know that I'll always persevere.
Erm... I WOULD WANT TO persevere.

Alritey, religion aside. Life's about making choices right? I believe this gd fren of mine had made a couple of decisions that had caused his current distress and hurt upon others. DId he KNOW? I don't blame him. Perhaps he hadnt matured sufficiently per se, to have made the 'right' decisions. Then again, who's to say what's right or wrong? What is right to me, may be wrong to you. In other words (bear in mind, God and the bible, and state laws aside), what's right to you is always right, until proven wrong. No? I don't wanna judge him, but me being me, I dont condone what he's done.

I get upset over some things ppl do. But am i right and they're wrong? Perhaps I'm just being overly sensitive or prolly grouchy over the bleeding of my uterus.
Wud I still react the same way, given the same problem, BUT with no C.R, been to Hi-tea and gotten a new pair of Jimmy Choos?
Wud I still be throwing my tantrum like it's meant the whole world to me, or shrug it off nonchalantly?


THe thing about making choices... that's a toughie.
I'm old enough to make mine. I'm glad I did take charge and did something outta the norms (my norm, at least). Quoth Mark Twain from Robs, "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
Granted, live ur life with no regrets. But before u make a choice to sail from ur comfort zone...
Rmb, People are pragmatic creatures. Some more so than others. Good? or Bad?
Debatable. And with no definite conclusion.

I try to be rational. It's like business, make the right investments. Calculate the risks involved. What's the likelihood of it to turning into success? Then U'd be asking "what's success?"
u'd have to look at ur business objectives and what's ur standard of success.

Back to Twain's nautical analogy. For me, I've sumtin to add- Don't just sail away when the storms are raging. U're bound to be lost in the vast ocean, vulnerable and without help. Ur sails will be caught in the whirlwind, and ur vessel will drown, and u'd be too. Always hold on to your secure bowline, until the storm passes by. God will help u with that bowline, and He'll guide u to places that He knows u'd be delighted to be exploring.

Like what mom always tells me, "Make wise choices. Trust in God and He'll lead u to your destination. If you don't, then u'll just have to learn it the hard way."


Heh. U can be sure learning things the hard way's gonna inflict detrimental effects to your well-being.
I pray that he'll make wise, matured decisions from now on. And same goes for all my other friends!

:)