I've decided to take charge of MY life.

"Mom, can i get a haircut tmr?"

"NO! It looks just fine! You don't need a haircut! It's not about money. It's just that u dun need it! It looks better this way!"


What?


I cant have a haircut?!


The last time I'd one was 3 mths ago. The next one, if need be, is like NOW.

I know, i know. I can go to my hairdresser first, go home, toss my hair a lil, flaunt my new hairdo, somewhat nonchalantly as i walk past the hall with my mom on the sofa.

But no. I won't do that. Coz her comment will always be "Ur haircut is horrid!"
There u have it. I'd start to feel defensive and all. Not to mention, I'll actually begin to feel that it IS awful.


Besides, I wouldn't want to use my money. I'm saving up for my cello. I hope she won't object to my purchasing of one.


Maybe i should just marry one of the cellist from SSO! Good idea.




Speaking of which, IF we don't get thru the audition (which is NEXT SAT), I'd just DIE.



IF we do not get thru the audition, I'll just eat alot of chocolates till i get so fat i cant wear all my clothes anymore.
And I'll buy summore to share with Gdine and shufang so we can all get fat.


Sounds dumb. But that's what I'm planning to do. Humans always do dumb things.

Just like when some slime-of-a-bf dumps the poor girl, she tries to kill herself. Or when someone calls you fat and u start to barf out whatever that passes thru ur oesophagus thereafter.
Ppl do unhealthy things to their body when they don't feel good.

It's silly. We all know it. Still, we choose to execute plans to ruin our body.

Humans. We all possess a funny thing called brain- The perplexity of which we never can fathom.
It's crazy. I know.

I know that you know that I know almost anything I thought i knew.
The only truth to it is that- I'm not not actually sane.

Sooo...




Hmm... I'm craving for soft cushy soyabeancurd with hot choco fudge on it.