My head feels like it's been inflated with lotsa air. An airhead is writing this.

My brain just shrunk to the size of a pea. OR smaller.

SOmetimes, God is the only one i can depend on. Jesus is the only one i can turn to. They know me. Inside and out. Vertical or horizontal.

Have i not wished that my life was something more special?

Is that what i really want? Special? What's special? anyways? Special because My intestines are twisted? Special because I'm gonna lose my sight?

Special because I can really make a difference. Now can I?


I'm really quite a weakling. So I fell sick. So I've many assignments. So my projects are due soon. But so what?

It's no big deal and I'm kicking a helluva massive fuss about it. I actually felt sorry for myself!
Much to my disgust.


Copying notes from the computer right now. I nd a break. HAve got this really awful feeling tat I'm gonna flunk tmr's CCT.


Boy do i need someone that i can actually SPEAK to right now! Praying helps. But i need SOMEBODY!

You know, friends always say things like "I'll always be here for you."
How true is that? Hmm.. think point.

OOOhhh.. and moms go like "I know you best. U were once in my womb for 9 mths! And look at this big tummy u're staring at right now. U were the cause of it."

My sister says "You can tell me anything!"


I wonder...


It's time like these- wee hours of the night. That ppl stay up in bed, thinkin bout stuffs. Be it the UPS or the DOWNS.
To whom can i share all these feelings to? Verbally. That is. With immediate responses. Someone from EARTH.

I've the answer. And it's- NONE. Don't u have the exact same sentiments? I dunno. I haven found my soul mate...

I cant go barging into my mom's room and start bawling like a baby, sniffing and blowing my nose on her sleeves. She needs to wrk and get her much needed rest.
I cant beg my sister to wake up and listen to me! She's like a dead body when she's asleep.
I cant call anyone. Nobody. Well, actually, I can. But i'll feel bad after that, for disturbing their beauty sleep.

Argh. Everything's just soo messy. I don't know what to think anymore.