Name the tummy

Jemmie named her tummy Pummy.

I'm gonna name mine Whummy.

And I hope Whummy slims down soon. Becoz my Mommy just told me that Whummy's on the bigger side now.

Ugh.


And how do I make this site ungoogleable?
I think I had no imagination whatsoever when I chose the blog address. -_-


Mr Chan gave me a surprise last night. I'm still deciding if the first part was pleasant or dreadful.

I'm feeling sugarified. Am abstaining from soft, cushy sweetums for a while now. And also, CHOCOLATES. Till I lose my 2 kgs of flabsssss.

Whummy must be feeling quite lonely. Probably why she's decided to be more prominent so ppl will notice her more. Bad Whummy.

PERFECT! BUT...

*sigh.

Life's a bitch aint it?



"BUT" is a 3 letter word. It's easy to use. It's ubiquitous. BUT it is not what we always want to hear.

Picture this-
U've searched high and low for this one Iconic bag that will last u till the end of time (your time on Earth, at least).
So what if it costs u like your 2 months' paycheck? It's absolutely timeless. Goes with any of your outfit. Suits your every mood. Every single thing about it is JUST RIGHT.
Mine would be the Hermes Birkin. *gasp* even the name sends shudders and gives me goosebumps. One day...
So anyway. Continue picturing. It took u months of shopping till your feet hurt, months of trying on bags in front of the mirror till you're so sick of seeing yourself already...
Not the right size, not the right colour, hate that grip, what's with the zip? Too big a pocket, awful material...
THere's always sumtin to pick on! And u're almost desperate.

At long last, one day, when u weren't in a fervent lookout for it... U passed by a shop that had this bag on display. This bag exuding such irresistible attractive forces that lured u to it...
U picked it up. "Hmm. Good hold. Not too heavy either."
U try it on. "Feels good. Not too long nor short."
U looked at ur reflection. "It's perfect!"

Needless to say, u swiped that plastic, thought for a second about 2 mths' paycheck. Then threw that thought outta ur mind becoz u dun give a damn. U've finally found the PERFECT BAG. You can't wait to prance around with it on your shoulders.

When u held it, it made u looked glamorous. It gives you the feel-good aura, like it's meant to be. It's everything U've ever wanted. BUT. Is it really the perfect bag?

Yes. Of course it is! Dun be silly! It is PERFECT... BUT I don't feel connected to it.

Maybe I'm not making sense. Alright. I'm all about connection. Even with my bags. YES. I must feel the CONNECTION! Otherwise... it's just odd.
I need to feel it. The sweet, tingly feeling each time I see it, hold it, and use it. I need to be sure it is my ICONIC BAG.

Ugh... What saddens me is that... I thought I've found my bag. Everything about it is right for me. But somehow... I don't feel connected to it...

Odd...I'm worried. I've made my purchase and I don't want a refund. I will be devastated if I have to let it go... So pray Lord I feel the connection soon or I'd have to send it away so others might have a chance at this Perfect Bag.

Bother bother

Why do people have Monday Blues?

I've not had that for at least a month now. School hols could really mess up one's notion of time. I'd been having sporadic sleep patterns and as much as I do like my sleep, sleep doesn't like me very much.

I woke up with a ruddy spinning head and it's still spinning right now. Yes, am feeling like my upper body is swaying whilst my ass is stuck to the chair.

Canida just barged into the room and snorted. -_-
Under Normal circumstances, I'd snort back and squeeze her arm.
BUt not today.

She speaks: Are u going anywhere?

SIlence.

She repeats.

Me: *grunts*

She speaks: Where?

Silence. and clatters on the keyboard.

She repeats.

Me: School.

Bah.

Life could be so boring.

I'm definitely experiencing Monday blues right now and it's primarily owing to my lack of decent sleep. I'm spose to be meeting Manwinder in 1.5 hours and I'm still here. Undressed, hair in disarray, and am feeling grouchy coz I'm so hungry but I've no appetite. UGh.
THe only thing I'd like to have is Ice cream and chocolates!!!


I'm gona be in blue ensemble today..Hopefully, it'll reflect all the blues away. Heh.

Manah Manah.

Doo doo doo doo doo.

Manah Manah.

Doo doo doo dooo.

Manah manah.

Doo doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo, doo doo, do do do do do do do.




I was having dinner with my family tonight at Fish & Co. Imm. My mom says the waiter waiting on us was handsome.

If he is handsome. I'm gorgeous. Since the latter is true. I guess he is handsome after all.


Manah manah. Doo doo doo doo.

For the last time

I have done it. This time I'm determined. This time I will succeed.

No regrets at all. Tmr I will have someone take 'em away. Maybe I'll never see 'em again.

This is how I start my clean slate. My only regret is that it felt like I'd lost a precious part of me.

For the last time, all's sealed with a kiss of sad goodbye.

This I must do

Once, we'd made memories of us. For now, this I must do.

I pray to the Lord for strength to proceed...

It will be a clean slate. Free from all blemishes.
God shall wipe away all tears.

Forgive me, for this I must do...

Blessed am I

I've often complained about my "wretched life"and I've had my share of thanksgiving.
But more of the former, I do realise.

I'm happy today. Oh yes I'm happy today, in Jesus' name, I'm happy today. Because He's taken all my sins away, and that's why I'm happy today.

This is a song we used to sing in Junior Bible class. I've always sung it becoz we were told to sing it. I'm singing it today becoz it came from my heart.

Gal 5:22 - 23
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,

gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law.


These traits are the fruit of the spirit. I have only but little of each. Much to learn and much to grow.

The bible spoke of the greatest gift-- LOVE.

1 Cor 13:13
And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.


Love is a big word. Man possesses the inherent need for love. Man yearns for love. Man would do anything for love. Yet, man cannot find the ultimate meaning of love. Until he has found God.
But even so, what is Love?

1 John 4:8
- He who does not love does not know God, for God is love.

If I say this to a non-believer. He'll probably look at me and think nothing of it. Perhaps even scorn at my belief.
"Who is God? Does he even exist??? If He does, then where is He? Look at the calamity upon earthlings. Look at all the evil here on earth. This is the maliciousness he's created. God. Ha!"

But God is Love. I see it in the goodness of ppl around me. I see it in my mom. I see it in brethrens from church. I see it in other ppl. I see God's love for even the beasts of the fields, the birds of the air and all His wonderful creations around me.

And I love myself. For I am God's creation. I love myself, and I love the people around me. I have not mastered having compassion for ALL. At the very least, I love my family and friends. I am thankful for them.


To someone whom I truly admire... For her strength and perserverance, individuality and wisdom... and for being a friend...

Perhaps one day, U'd be too weary of life's tortuous road.
Perhaps on day, U'd be questioning if life's meaning is of existence at all.
Perhaps one day, U'd feel like giving up.
Perhaps one day, when u feel all alone...

Know that, He is always there for you.
Know that, His love is never changing, measureless and strong.
Know that, He is Forever.
Know that, in Him u'd find strength to carry on.
Know that, there's at least a friend who cares.

Someday, you'll find no sorrow ever touching your heart.
Someday, you shall never be afflicted with ailments and pain.
Someday, each step u take is light and cheery.
Someday, no tears shall reach your eyes.
Someday, eternal rest in His arms you shall be.
Forever and for Always.



Perhaps if we look towards the beautiful home over there, everything will be worth it all.

Stay strong! Know that life here is only temporary. And I'll just be a phonecall away if u need me :)

Spring cleaning

It's been 12 hours... I'm still at it. :(

Im knackered. But seeing it like it is... I can't put my mind to rest!

So It is. Toiling on.

I'm so hungry too. And afflicted with a lil bit of headache :(

Saw silly pics of my frens and I when we were younger. My uncle was right. I was very ugly.

Found a load of letters, cards and postcards. Read some of 'em. *nostalgic
I was contemplating if I should discard things that I shouldn't read anymore because they still brought tears to my eyes. I'm clueless as to why, but that doesn't really matter now. Have stashed em away somewhere secretive... Heh. See! I forgot where I put em now. LOL!


Found hidden money. $150!!!
:D

Ok. I've gotta get back to putting away all my stuff.


Bother bother.
I'm gonna look like a zombie and speak funny tmr. I hope Robs doesn't notice.


*yawns.


How I wish there were two of me.

heh. The trend of divulging the FML moments

Vics and Meds did this. Though their FML moments were really quite fml-y. Mine's probably on par.

#I'd been walking around the whole day in this pair of shorts which felt odd on that particular day, I thought I'd probably put on some flab (heh. what's new) but later on realized I'd worn the back at my front-- with the zippers at the back...

#I went to the ladies to take a leak and realised there was no need for me to unzip. Apparently, I'd been walking around Jurong point with my front zipper down and my fanciful panties in full glory. Talk about extreme ways of attracting attention...

#My uncle told my mom this in hakka "Your daughter used to be ugly when she was younger, good thing she's pretty now."
I can't decide if I should be happy or upset.

#Mom: Why is your top so low?
Me: No, it's not. U can't see anything!
Mom: That's coz u have no boobs!

#On the same day when Dom and I had ended our relationship, my mom 'comforted' me by saying, "It's alright, you don't have God's blessing in this relationship anyway."

#Once in the MRT, my ass landed on a stranger's lap when it made a sudden jerk. The train started to move again, and the inertia had made it impossible for me to get up. I apologised to him whilst sitting on his lap. Almost everyone else in the cabin sniggered.

#I rammed head-on into a huge block of wall during rush hour. It was so painful I stood there and cried.

#During the most recent GM, Robs realised that Ruiqi's friend who was sitting beside me all along was his ex-classmate.

#When Gdine told everyone else I ever said that my house was still "unno rendervation".

#And when she tried to portray how terrible my chinese was by telling everyone I said "一个戏有几个时间？"
Ok... I meant "How many episodes are there in this drama series?"

#When Mrs Chia announced to the whole class I got A2 for O lvl chinese upon my first attempt, everyone applauded. It really isn't that bad... :(

#When I use 成语s，my very own sister goes all wide-eyed and in awe "你也会用成语！？"

#When it occurs to me that I've hopped on the wrong train. Again.

#I was talkin to Gdine and Yijia, and I felt Alvin feeling my left arm.
He did this-
1. Shook my arm.
2. counted "1, 2, 3, 4..." until my arm stopped shaking.

#My body had decided to give me the biggest, reddest, most glaring zit on my nose for my 21st bday.

#Yijia and Gdine unanimously pointed out that my pony tail was much thicker 5 years ago.

#When my mom asked me to check out Tung Lok Group's restaurants online, I asked "so when are we going?"
She broke into a fit of malicious laughter after she replied in bewilderment "Did I say I was going to bring you there?"

# When my Mom told me she'd bring me to The Line at Shangri-La, but she went there 2 weeks later without telling me.

Heh. I've got many more FML moments but these shud suffice for now.

OMG. THIS. IS. NOT. HAPPENING!!!

Felt like crap all of yesterday and today.

Ugh. All hail Crimson River. You NEVER fail to make me feel like dying.
NEVER.

Argh.

I was clearing out my Yahoo Mail's inbox and found a folder of emails titled 'Dominic'. We must've exchanged probably over 200 emails. -.-
I scanned thru some of them just now... I've tried deleting them once. Obviously, I've failed to do so. And I still can't hit the 'delete' button. What the hell's wrong with me?!
SOMEONE PLEASE DELETE THEM FOR ME. I WILL PAY YOU. I PROMISE.

I am contemplating adopting kids if I ever get married so I wont be needing my uterus anyway.
Someone please remove my uterus for me. You'll have my gratitude till the day I breathe my last. Amen.

It's a small world afterall

HEH.

It really is a SMALL WORLD.

Turns out Ruiqi's friend is Robs' ex sec sch classmate.

It was a wee bit awkward. Not sure if Robs felt it.


W E I R D.



Mom's car broke down below Gdine's block. I texted that girl and she replied: "Have fun!"

-_-

She'd later redeemed herself by saying "I'm nt home now, otherwise I'd have asked u to come up for some air-con blowing session."

She'd better!

When the car was fixed (kudos to Uncle Bobby!!!), Mom drove us to NTU, then to Jurong Hill (Jurong birdpark). You could see very pretty city lights from there! Heh. Probably why it's a popular spot for lovebirds to spend a romantic evening at. We felt so out of place. Lingered for 10 minutes and drove back home.


*sigh


How nice it would be to have more of such days. Just have a nice ride late at night to quiet places :)

Life is too short to dwell in the negative. So.... Crimson river or not... I'll just ...
start complaining when it's here again.

Crimson River is coming...

I don't even have to stare hard in the mirror to notice another outburst of all the unwanted acnes on my face.

I get this EVERY MONTH. !@#$%^&*()

U know kids normally do join-the-dots? U can do that on my face. I'm serious. Sometimes I get the Orion on my nose. Tsk. This is doubly irritating. I get menstrual cramps. Real bad ones too. I get cranky. I get eeky. I get acne outbreaks. Come to think of it, I might even growl if somebody touches me.

Why?! Why do I hv to suffer like this?!?!

I shud just have a penis, sit cross legged anyhow I want, dress sloppily and not change my bedsheets or even socks...not do any housework and scratch my crotch in public (not that girls do that) and I'll still be considered NORMAL.

Heh.


*whines to infinity.

I dun wan crimson river...........

I'm going to CasualPoet with Irenes tmr. It is required of me to visit and review two "quaint/unique" stores in Singapore.
I was just done with the first one. one more to go!

CasualPoet seems absolutely cool. I hope it's sumtin good. Else... I'd just hang out all my stuff for display in my room, and call it a store. Then I'll serve home-made hot chocolate for drinks. And give good advices at a rate of $5/minute. That would be quaint alright.

Heh.

Yj, Robs, Vinc and Gdine came to my church's Gospel meeting last night. Lesson was titled THIS WORLD IS NOT MY HOME. Indeed. There's no denying it.
This is a four-part gospel meeting. Sunday thru Thursday. Every evening at 7.30pm.
I'm looking forward to tmr's. Ivan and Leo might be coming too.

Gdine was hyperactive today. Reminds me of Stuart of Madtv.

Gdine, honestly, grow up already. Act like a lady. Act like me. :p