Vic wants me to do it.

Rules: 20 random things about me. For every minute spent, tag that number of people.


1. I feel like...I wanna shit but I dont wanna shit.

2. I think chubby cheeks are cute. I like pinching chubby cheeks.

3. And poking cushy tummies.

4. Stepping on snails really disgusts me. Actually, the sight of them is disgusting enough.

5. If I'm ever gonna become an old spinster like Miss Soh. I'm gonna have 2 cats.

6. Sometimes, I keep my important stuff hidden in some secretive area, and I'd end up forgetting where they are.

7. I like to squeeze my zits. Heh.

8. I'm desperately in need of a boyfriend by the end of this year otherwise I'd have to treat Meng,Ire,WenJ and Yanz to dinner next yr. Don't ask...

9. Robs just scared the shit outta me.

10. I must have two pillows and a bolster. And I must always have my blanket.

To NZW- I'd attend your 21st if I could. U were always such a sweet friend despite ur silly remarks and "rolling-eyes-worthy" jokes.
Happy 21st man! U'll always be our 'Xiaobai'.


To Eng- though I'd be attending your bday celebration, I wont be able to stay long... Nonetheless, Blessed 21st! I've known you for yonks and not once have I ever seen u get the slightest bit of discontentment and dislike towards anyone... I do admire you a whole lot for that. U're always cheery and helpful. A friend worth keeping for the rest of my life. Really. Me loves you!


To MnP- I wish I can stay for the night. But i've church the following morning. The last gathering was a blast and Im pretty sure tonight will be too. :)


To Chris- I'd have attended the Virtuoso if I could! REally! All the best for the performance! U'd do great! Awfully charming on stage I reckon! :)




CAn I get a cloning machine for Christmas pls. I need one.

One minute, u're ever so close to someone. The next, the gulf between the both of you sets u asunder-- the distance so far, it kills.

I've no words for you now. Just...

"I feel for you. I'm sorry the way things are...But it's not within our grasp. I do grief, my heart doth aches for u. You'll pull thru, slowly perhaps, but surely. U do knw that dont u?"

Trust in Him, and He'll guide you thru. Keep praying.
Here's a hymn for you--"What a friend we have in Jesus."

What a Friend we have in Jesus,
all our sins and griefs to bear.

What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer.

O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear,

All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.


Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?

We should never be discouraged; take it to the Lord in prayer.


Can we find a friend so faithful,
who will all our sorrows share?

Jesus knows our every weakness; take it to the Lord in prayer.


Are we weak and heavy laden,
cumbered with a load of care?

Precious Savior, still our refuge, take it to the Lord in prayer.


Do your friends despise, forsake you?
Take it to the Lord in prayer.

In His arms He’ll take and shield you; you will find a solace there.


Blessed Savior, Thou hast promised,
Thou wilt all our burdens bear

May we ever, Lord, be bringing all to Thee in earnest prayer.


Soon in glory bright unclouded there will be no need for prayer
Rapture, praise and endless worship will be our sweet portion there.



"It boggles my mind, what's happened... I guess I won't blame him though. He's not worthy of your tears and sleepless nights. It'll cease soon. Do promise me it will?"


I know it's difficult to swallow... but it's reality, and u're in it. I know u're always thinkin how illusional am I. Heh. At least for a bit, join me in my fantasy and I'll take u to a better place. :)
But of course, we'll come back. When it is so, we'd still have each other and u'll have others who love you too.

So dry those tears now and get rdy for some adventure. :) Soon it shall be! That's a promise.

Mixed feelings all conjured into one.
As like a tumour it is...

I surprise myself sometimes.

I would if I could. Slowly, but surely...
I will.

Stashed away in secret places so secret I don't rmb where.
Clever of me really.

But for now...
*sigh




suslYItimliso...

Another week gone by. There's a slight predicament as to whether I ought to smile or frown.

What to smile about-

# I'd completed Comm Law and Marketing Tests- Marketing test was just !@#$%^&. You get the idea.

# I was out with Manwinder on Fri afternoon. We'd stepped into the realms of the unknown. The partaking of various food items at Geylang Road and roaming further into JooChiat Rd hoping to spot some soya bean curd stall. Heh. Only to find ourselves gettin caught in the rain, jaywalking like we're traffic police. (I kept raising my hand to the drivers and they'd actually stopped! Like what can they do right? Go on anyway and hit us?)

# I've finally met up with Irenes.

# I bought this lovely olive green dress. A real steal. It was love at first sight.

# PP company dinner at Vienna with the lovely PP co-workers. Yummm.

# I've decided to stop eating junk food. (no actually, I shud frown at this.)

# Gi's gonna get a few more pinches on his cheeks if he doesn't stop talkin in the weird fashion.


What to frown about-

# Marketing test was !@#$%^.

# "Fat" is no longer a "feeling". It's a fact now!

# I've more things coming my way. More load to add on to the already heavy-laden shoulder.

# I can't find my camera's cable wire.

# I'm unsure of certain things.

# I've *** calling me every week yakking away non-stop. -_- Some ppl are either super dim or super thick-skinned.

# I can be such a bitch at times.

# Marketing project is in the stagnant phase.


HEH.



*sigh.


Backstreet Boys. On repeat mode whilst I drift off to slp each night.


C'mon, we've all had our BSB moments. Me loves BSB. :)

It's been a while. It's gonna be a boring post. I'm just jotting dwn what I've been doing.

Do not proceed to read beyond this unless you're extremely free.

Happenings this month:



Let's start with 31st July-

THE GARDEN EXHIBITION. BEeeeeeee-u-teeeee-foooooooll.

I tell you~~ It's so pretty! I wish I have a garden of my own man.

I've been meaning to upload pictures, but am so very lazy. Perhaps soon eh? On Flickr, comin soon! Gdine was very very late indeed. I don't blame her though. Her tardiness was very much unexpected. Apparently, PP had a very important event to cater to on the 1st Aug...



1st Aug-

Jazz piano Duet- Jeremy Monteiro (He's so cute!) and Michael Veerapen at THE ART'S HOUSE.
Robs was kind enough to have brought me to this spectacular duet.
Monteiro's a local composer, performer, whatever! Very musically inclined to cut the long story short. Veerapen's a Malaysian artiste. Both are well known in the region.
It was just really cute of Monteiro to have lifted his fingers off the ebony and ivory keys to strum on the strings (it was a grand piano u see) of the piano. LOL. He did about 6 strokes or more. LOL. I've nvr seen anything like it!



PP was catering to one of the ministers who's got a dinner party goin on. Heh. President Nathan was there la! Drats. I wish I had been there!

"Good evening Mr President. Perhaps you'd like to reconsider your hand waving technique for the upcoming National Day Parade?"
LOL. I've been watching him wave on screen during NDPs. U knw, after he's inspected the GOH and all? He'll just walk around and start waving to the audience? His wave is hilarious.





5th Aug-

Zhaoting and I went to meet Ken. Ken's the co-owner of Settlers Lite and a Business Developer. He's agreed to sponsor our school's bash! Awesome. There's gonna be much fun at the Bash publicity exhibition! Settler's loaned us a couple of games and we'll be able to give students a lil game action at the atrium soon.

There're prizes for winners!



8th Aug-

Some of us met Sunny the choreographer for our pageant to discuss and finalize some issues. That man's gay. VERY GAY. I'd pictured him to be somewhat muscular, short, skinhead, gay... But no. Quite the opposite (xept for the 'short' and 'gay' part.) He looks so uncle, with the moustache, beer belly, plump physique... and he'd a picture of this cute guy about my age as his phone's screen saver! *faints*



Dinner at Santouka with my lovelees- Pork and Ping. I miss 'em so. Coincidentally, we met Pork's elder sister a few tables away with her bf! And guess what? bout 30 minutes after they left the restaurant, her sister texted her and told her that the bf's proposed! Awww... now isnt that sweet?



9th Aug-

Happy blessed 43rd, Singapore!

Dinner at A. Frances'.
Victoria left Meds and I at her house whilst she caught HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL at the expo with the kids. -_-



13th Aug-

Movienation- Journey to the centre of the Earth. But I neh go.



15th Aug-

Dinner with my lovelees again- Jess, Pork, Wen and Ping.

Jess is a madwoman. She is.



18th Aug-

Photoshoot at Bern's fren's guesthouse at Cornwall gardens. The hse is damn big la! The guesthouse also! There was this cool lookin swimming pool by the guesthouse! The pageant contestants had to be in swimwear and all. Heh.

I left early though. Had my dental appointment.
Dr Chua- the dentist who did my scaling and polishing. SO GAY. SUPER GAY.
The power went off for a bit. He went like "That's ree-deek-Q-lous." Crossed his legs and arms. in a very gay manner. *shudders*



Everytime "gay" springs into mind... I cant help but be reminded of Brokeback Mountain. The tent scene.

Till now, I've nt mustered the courage to go beyond the tent scene. I'm very much disturbed by it...





eeeks.



Oh! GLORY OF LOVE. One of me fav songs is on class 95 Love Songs now.
Alritey. I'm gonna go read.

Damned if I do. Damned if i don't.
One year will soon be gone.

Time is fleeting, it waits for none.
Shall I sit and wait?
Or shall dusk be upon me as I tread on further?

Damned if I should say it. Damned if I keep mum.
It's easy to rove about into the familiar.

Danger lurks, no less.
Though famliliar this gravel road may be,
darkness shall loom and shadow all.

Damned if I linger on. Damn if I should proceed.
Who holds the answer but me?

Enter I into a placid nocturne,
prancing away to a lovely cantata.
Then perhaps, afloat I shall no longer be.

When at dawn, the birds shall sing
and I'd be waiting by the river of life.

"It's nothing personal, it's just business."

Heh.

Money matters. The highlight of family dinner tonight, in celebration of Dad's 57th birthday.

Family business.
*sigh. Whate'r it is, I believe kinship should not falter at the end of the dividend.


OOooh~ Westlife's on radio. LOL. My Love. Heh. I still rmb Chongyi playing this song on Repeat mode and Duanrong sang along with the both of us as we drifted off to slp during my sleepovers.

*sigh. That was like what? more than 5 yrs ago?! -_-
Yikes.


*sigh.

One year's pretty long don't ya think? But again... time's fleeting.

One year will soon be gone.

I came across IRON and WINE.

Deep. Deep is the word.

THE TRAPEZE SWINGER (one of my favourites)
It's like studying literature. Deciphering what SAM BEAM's message was. Subtly beautiful. I reckon it talks about life and death. Probably about a lost lover. A mixture of fond memories, contrast of the things in life-- both wonderful and evil.
The trapeze swinger, his act will come to an end. It's fleeting. As is-- our life.

And here it is. THE TRAPEZE SWINGER.
(Pls do tell me what it really means. I'm cracking my brains on this one. Sam Beam's being too profound!)

Please, remember me
Happily
By the rosebush laughing
With bruises on my chin
The time when
We counted every black car passing
Your house beneath the hill
And up until
Someone caught us in the kitchen
With maps, a mountain range
A piggy bank
A vision too removed to mention
But

Please, remember me
Fondly
I heard from someone you're still pretty
And then
They went on to say
That the pearly gates
Had some eloquent graffiti
Like "We'll meet again"
And "Fuck the man"
And "Tell my mother not to worry"
And angels with their great
Handshakes
Were always done in such a hurry
And

Please, remember me
At Halloween
Making fools of all the neighbors
Our faces painted white
By midnightWe'd forgotten one another
And when the morning came
I was ashamed
Only now it seems so silly
That season left the world
And then returned
And now you're lit up by the city
So

Please, remember me
Mistakenly
In the window of the tallest tower
Calling passers-by
But much too high
To see the empty road at happy hour
Gleam and resonate
Just like the gates
Around the holy kingdom
With words like "Lost and found"
And "Don't look down"
And "Someone save Temptation"
And

Please, remember me
As in the dream
We had as rug-burn babies
Among the fallen trees
And fast asleep
Aside the lions and the ladies
That called you what you like
And even might
Give a gift for your behavior
A fleeting chance to see
A trapeze
Swing as high as any savior
But

Please, remember me
My misery
And how it lost me all I wanted
Those dogs that love the rain
And chasing trains
The colored birds above their running
In circles around the well
And where it spells
On the wall behind St. Peter
So bright with cinder gray
And spray paint"Who the hell can see forever?"
And

Please, remember me
Seldomly
In the car behind the carnival
My hand between your knees
You turned from me
And said, "The trapeze act was wonderful
But never meant to last"The clown that passed
Saw me just come up with anger
When it filled with circus dogs
The parking lot
Had an element of danger
So

Please, remember me
Finally
And all my uphill clawing
My dear
But if I make
The pearly gates
Do my best to make a drawing
Of God and Lucifer
A boy and girl
An angel kissing on a sinner
A monkey and a man
A marching band
All around the frightened trapeze swingers