Alright Gdine, quit picking on my words. I'm DEFINITELY worth more than 6 pieces of truffles from Godiva.

I received a box of my most coveted chocolates today. It's too much for me to behold. Stored in the refrigerator, I dun think i'd dare to have them at all. Maybe i shud cryopreserve them or sumtin.


=)

I'm weak.

I've read.

I'm jealous.

I'm envious.

Shoot me!

Reality sucks. As always. Which is why I love burying myself in books, indulging myself, spending endless time in front of the screens.

Ever tried to put off reality and live in denial?

Always the easy way out.

Be rational and snap outta it. It'll definitely do you more good than you allow yourself.

Problems do not just disappear or be resolved just because you choose to put them off or address them at a later date. They're always there bugging you and if u choose to be ignorant, they may haunt you later maybe ten times more.


I'm glad I've set aside emotions and addressed reality as I should.


I know I couldnt have been happier.

Do u find yourself smiling as and when u like. At nobody?

I do. Certain things were running through my mind and uncontrollably, a smile was plastered on my face. It didnt occur to me how weird it may seem until I felt eyes appraising me, labeling me as unsound.


I was in a long, sweet slumber. I dreamt about doing my project. Not that it's anything sweet at all. Sweet becoz I've not been sleeping well these days.

Awaken by nothing, I sprang up. A brand new day awaits. Rejoice in the Lord always.

I was reading a poem which brought me close to tears,
here it is, i share with u, hope ur heart it nears.

"A precious boy with the golden hair
came up one day beside my chair
and fell upon my bended knee
and said "Oh mommy, please pray with me!"

I said "Not now, go on and pray;
I've got so much to do today."
He smiled through tears in eyes so blue
When i said, "We'll pray when i get through."

But the chores lasted through the day
and i never did find time to pray.
When supper was over and dishes done,
I was much too tired for my little son.

I tucked him in and kissed his cheek
and watched my angel fall asleep.

As i tossed and turned upon my bed,
those words kept ringing in my head,
"Not now., son, go on and pray,
I've got so much to do today."

I fell asleep and in a minute's span,
my little boy is a full grown man.

No toys are there to clutter the floor;
no dirty fingerprints on the door;
no snacks to fix; no tears to dry;
the rooms just echo my lonely sigh.

And now I've got the time to pray,
but my precious boy is gone away.
I awoke myself with a pitiful scream
and realized it was just a dream.

For across my room in his little bed,
ay my curly haired boy, the sleep head.
My work will wait 'till another day
for now I must find some time to pray."
-From Diana (Mrs Joe) Neal.

Braces. It hurts. I picked Blue. :)

I cant chew well. I speak funny.

I cant wait for Christmas so i can change them to red and green. :)

Devoided of happiness of the recent.

Yesterday was a day I'd very much wish I could have a reel of film just so I could watch it whenever I feel like it.

I was so happy I couldn't fall asleep until 7am. It's 1055 now. Although CYC woke me up from my sweet slumber with a called just now, i didnt feel the least bit irritated. Nothing's gonna dampen my mood today!

It's Cyc's birthday today.

I've had a swell of a time yesterday and it was just WONDERFUL.
A homely picnic at Labrador park. :)
It's been eons since I last laughed the way I did.



Last day before the pain commences. Pls do talk to me whilst u still can before i start speaking really funny.

1030 hours.
I'm sitting outside NP co-op at block 80. Alone.

Ben's late again. I wonder if he's having diarrhea or if Spotty peed on him.

I was reading SeaN's blog and found myself nodding and laughin in agreement at his latest post.

I hate CYC. We're meetin him to discuss about our experiments.

I feeel so messed up, inside out.

I'm gonna sign up to do voluntary work. After my medical condition gets a lil more settled.
Ruiqi and Dominic have told me about it.
I've always wanted to do sumtin, instead of wasting my life away. I'm past 19. I dun wanna reach adulthood knowing that I'd spent the days of my youth doing things that I'll categorize as "shallow".
I've visited to the Red Cross home for the disabled a few times. Done a lil community service here and there. It's never enough though. It's so ostensive. I feel the need to DO SOMETHING! I feel inadequate.

You look around u. U see youngsters having fun, hanging out at the beaches. Dancin and drinkin away at clubs... picking up girls... watching late night movies, going shopping and other worldly recreations.
Tell me, what's your take on that?
I was doing some reflection, and i felt disgusted. Of myself.
I'm guilty of wasting my life away. I've failed to utilise the precious time God's given me. I do not make use of my talent (im sure i have it, but I've yet to discover it though).


Is Anyone up for some community work???