Approximately 17 hours to Aquaculture M. paper. I did a scheme-thru for the chapters. Im doin serious reading now. Im not studying. It's memorising really.

Nothing seems to stay in my puny little head.
I forget things easily. Like yesterday... AMB paper. I friggin forgot so many things I THOUGHT I'd remember. That's last minute muggin for you.
I hope by next semester, I'll be like Siowxian- Watches alot of tv. Does not sleep in lecture. Does all assignments in the speed of light. Gets many ADs.
A likely fairytale. I wont even be able to dream it!

Im taking a break.

I'm a wreck now. Despite having a facial last week, the acnes are back again.
That aside, my eyebags are getting darker, more prominent, puffy too!
I think i gained another 2 kg for stuffing myself with double lunches, a dinner and a truck full of junks.
Val's not the only one drowning in coke. *BURP*
So am I. *BURPppp*

In need of an extra brain!!!

Vala doin her thing... 

This is Valarie, Geraldine and myself 

I logged onto the MSN messenger. Don't we all?

I discovered something that I've failed to realise for a very looong time.

My favourite Nut-of-all-time,-Nut-of-the-century,
GERALDINE NG YUN JIA,

She and I, NEVER FAIL to chat with each other everytime we're online.

Cool huh? Wonder if she noticed.

The guys were mocking her today. That was so wrong! They mentioned that she's so on her way to Auntie-hood. Or rather, she's so into it ALREADY.
Besides the frequent high-decibel screeching, occasional "sotong-ness", irritable nonsense comments...
Gdine is really a very nice girl with a heart of gold. =)
We're just like Thighs. Said she.
Friends are like thighs, they always stick together thru thick and thin- an excerpt from some cute postcard i wrote her.
We had our share of thicks. And thins.
Sometimes i bug her, sometimes she bugs me.
Sometimes we laugh. Sometimes we scream.
Sometimes She's just plainly annoying.
So am I.
She dances like a jellyfish, chatters like nothing u've ever encountered.
Sings like a toad high on drugs (U know im only kidding girl)
There's really more to this 1.72m tall MIDGET...

I'm sorry. I love to call her a midget. Other than YJ. =)
I just cant std the fact that she's actually like 5cm taller than I!

"Have u seen a midget taller than you?" Says Gdine.


Whatever.



Here's to you Gdine-

I hope we'll be the best thigh-looking amigos ever! Even till the day you meet your Prince Charming!







And then there's Valarie Koh Wee Cheng.

Vala is the most interesting girl I've ever known.
It's hard NOT to like her. Really.
She may not be the most glamorous, gorgeous girl you see with stick thin figure. BUT, she's a joy to everyone around her.
Her laughter's unique. She starts the most ridiculous topics ever.
Vala's bubbly, hilarious, sweet, disgusting (she bleches out loudly and freely more than I do), adorable, pretty, compassionate... the list goes on. Those are a few of her trademark characteristics.


Oh well... If i were a guy, I'd snatch these two girls up in a jiffy.
What's with the guys these days? First they allow all gentlemen go extinct, then, they leave nice girls like Gdine and Vala heartbroken.

I just dont understand why.


If I were a lesbian, I'll pick...



















I dunno man. It's a tough choice. But i guess to be fair, I'd have to go with Kareen.

I'm racking my brain, tapping on its juice...

There's really not much left of it. I'm drained!
Statistics are useful. Analysing and computing statistics are dreadful chores.

What could be better than to kick-start the Exam Fever by taking Math&Stats paper first?

Two days away. I'm having my fingers crossed. AND It's less than two weeks to IAP. My intestines are interlinking one another, making a masive knot right now...


I just had a facial today, hadn't had one for months.
Acne outbreak again. My face is in a mess right now. I've got hundreds of zits on my face (eew).
It's not easy you know? Mom said that my face is acne-prone.
I've to apply different lalala-products on my face day and night, EVERYDAY!
If I don't, I'll look like... I'll look like what I am looking like NOW! Pimply-fied.
Slothful me. I'd love to mix them all up in a bottle and just splash them on my face. Hassle-free.
But Nooooo... it's not that simple.
How I wish I've skin like vala's, soft, smooth and supple. Not too dry nor oily. Her only facial flaw is blackheads, and dark eyebags. Mine's darker though.


I don't go for tans coz the Sun's UV rays will induce intrinsic aging of the skin. That'll be dumb.
I wouldn't wanna have wrinkles, age spots, spider veins, blotchy complexion, loose skin bla bla bla before the age of thirty.
If you've naturally fair skin, DON'T try to go for a tan or be under the sun for too long. You're damaging your skin! Especially during 11am-4pm. I don't use SPF. But SPF really helps to block out the sun. Spf 30-45 will be the best.

Don't try to be smart-tanned-aleck. It's dumb.
If you really have to be under the sun. Put on lotsa SPF >30.
Everyone should start the habit of applying sunscreen everyday!

When the world seems far more intimidating than it usually is, when sorrow may engulf you whole...

Words of comfort from our Father in Heaven-

2 Corinthians 1:3-4
3Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort;
4Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.


He is Wise. The omniscient.
He knows just what we need.


A lady need not possess a face that's close to flawless to feel beautiful in the inside. Same goes for the men. A soul is something we cannot see, it's present, we all agree.
The body will age, wrinkle and disintegrate, but the soul stays, for all eternity.
If you will, it'll mature and shine forth, and one day, meet The Lord.


Proverbs 31:30
30Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised.


I may not be beautiful on the outside, but Proverbs 31:30 had given me a great insight of how my life should be. From which, I may seek true beauty that was all along there within my grasp.


Just like what they say- "You're as beautiful on the outside as you do inside."



Math paper on friday! I'm still stuck at immunology...
Someone please lend me an extra brain!!!

YUCK MAN! I just squashed a beetle!!!!!!! Used a piece of paper as a form of barrier, didn't want contact with the invertebrate.
I hrd a loud CRUNCH! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
YUCK MAN. I feel sick.

Was watching Kate and Leopold on Channel 5 for the 3rd time. Maybe 4th.

Leopold (Hugh Jackman) is such a gentleman! Charming.

Every woman's dream indeed.

No wonder he's from the 19th century. Gentlemen don't live past 2 centuries.
21st century gentlemen are ALWAYS either TAKEN (ouch, reality hurts) or they're just faking it.


I know, I know. We, ladies aren't really LADIES. But that's beside the point.
Point is, girls are ALWAYS smitten by gentlemen. REAL ones of course. Not bogus ones. Trust me, if u're a fake, most of us will know.


Then there're guys like from 2F07.
Namely, Ben and Roy.
They do things like-
*Watch you put down ur bag and take a seat
"Kareen! Can you help me get milo. Iced." (Note that the tone is somewhere between a question and an order)
*Noticed your raised eyebrow and withering stare
*Digs for money
"There. 70 cents."
*Noticed that the look stays
"PLEASE!"
*Gives the sheepish (irksome) smile.

Being as nice as we girls are, we will do it. Quite unwillingly though.
Coz first- Guys should be the one asking us if we wanted a drink, then get them for us.
Second- The "PLEASE" comes only after we give THE LOOK.

U can guess what happens if u persist and say "No."

I'm not saying they're all that bad. Sometimes they're nice.
Then again, they're not exactly gentlemen. Once in a blue moon, absolutely.




I was telling Gdine how i wish, so very earnestly, to meet my YUAN YI!
If only a guy him ever existed. I'll jump right in front of him, tie him up and carry him home.
Sadly, guys like that exist only in your tv screen.





I dreamt about my Prince Charming a few times.
They're oh-so-sweet and Fairytalie.
Dreams are dreams! Even dreams cant be perfect. I've nvr seen my Prince Charming's face before. It's a face I cant register.



Anyways, guys...

Remember,

#hold the door for the girls. (AND for guys too, it's polite, and they might learn from you)
#Help them with their books.
#hold the lift door. (just press the damn "open lift door" button!)
#let the girls in FIRST when you're at the door or when the bus is not so crowded (if u're not in a rush)
#Do not leave Manners at home.
#Be nice to your mom. Help her with the chores whenever possible.
#Don't gape or raise an eyebrow at girls when we belch. It's common.
#La di da. The list goes on. If you're a gentleman, you'll know. =)



Math paper next Friday! All the best ppl!

OOoooh. The day is finally almost over.

I wasn't DATELESS afterall!!!

After school and my lunch date with Val(as her secret admirer) and the girls, I was gonno just retire home and have cold dinner all ALONE.

Lonely. Cold. Empty.

Gdine and I ended up in Pizza Hut instead.
We weren't dateless afterall!


We almost coughed out all our dinner. She gave me "lessons" on First Dates.
LOL.


Believe me, one of the silliest "lessons". Ever.



What's with the couples around us anyways? Going all lovey-dovey... We were like drowning in the crowd. There were so many pairs of them! Most of the ladies had a bouquet or at least a stalk of flower. Where're OURS?!

It's kinda freaky to go out with your girlfrens instead of having an actual date on Vday. Everyone else arnd you have proper dates.
Jealous as we were, we started counting the number of girlfrens holding flowers in their hands. Awww.. so sweet. We spotted a guy who held on to a rather big bouquet of red roses! His girl is late I suppose.

After bout half an hour... We became sick of them.


Dinner was great. I've learnt sumtin from Gdine though. Hahahhaa!


Gdine Tips on First Dates.

# Never have burgers with your date. Once you take the first bite into the burger, it'll only show how big your mouth is.

#Never have Pizza or spaghetti! It'll be messy.

#Never have noodles with soup. Have them dry. Coz if you're not gonna finish the soup, it'll seem like you're wasting food and that will leave a bad impression.

#Never BURP like you just did! You'll scare away your date!

#And please be very lady-like and demure.


#La di Da


OK. that was dumb. I had a good laugh over it and almost choked on my pizza.

Here's the thing- If someone is nice enough to take me out on a date, and if I've forgotten to abstain from Coca cola or pepsi, I'd most certainly Belch.

How can anyone not belch when drinking carbonated soft drinks?!
Well, I do. Rather loud i suppose. But nothing compared to Val's.

I think I'm already lady-like and demure. So that's fine. =)



The truth? I'm not a very good date. I haven't been on many but still... I know I'm not a good one.
I have this misconception that-
When somebody initiates a date...
# He/She must be the one who plans how the date should go. Coz he/she is the one who initiated it!
#He/She must be the one who think of things to say, be the conversation starter during awkward moments etc... coz your date has generously accepted your date, so you're not the one who's allowed to spoil it all for him/her.

Then again, that's not how it should be. A date is shared between the two. Both of them have the responsibilty to make their date a great one.



Argh! Aqua practical exam tomorrow.

*yawns

Atlantic Starr - Masterpiece (My Favourite song)

Jewel-ri-fied 

"I love Val." Says Val. She set this on my cell phone wallpaper!

Cousins! Elaine. Canida, Angel, Katherine, DuanRong and Myself. 

My Favourite Nutsss 

A tiger behind my back! "Meow!" Ok... i know tigers don't meow. But still... it's so cute it looks as if it said "Meow!" I need to get a new pencil case. This gives me the misconception that tigers MEOW. 

It says it all... 

Was lying in bed almost all day on saturday.

I don't know why, but I feel weird. There're lotsss to think about.


MY! THERE IS A FREAKING ANT CRAWLING ACROSS MY SCREEN RIGHT NOW!






RIGHT HERE-----------------------------> (freaking ant >ooo)


I've rolled it between my fingers.

This is most probably the HUNDREDTH one Ive killed within the past few weeks. My room's infested with ants. Yuck.

Not because I ate in my room. Rather... (brace yourself) because of my peeled epidermis. I've got dry skin. I peel it sometimes. Bored or not. It's a bad habit. Anyways, these ants were attracted to them! YUCK MAN. I havent the slightest idea why!!! They're feasting on them! Eew. I'm totally grossed out.

If I'm gonna be positive about it, I'm just gonna have to say that's because I'm Sweet.

Sweet or not, it's nauseating.


Do u know what's the quickest way to kill those pests?
Use sticky tape. Works wonders.
All u have to do is cut out a strip of tape and just stick 'em up. With a lil pressure of coz. Good as dead. U won't even have to dirty your hands.


If only all kinds of pests were THAT easy to terminate.


Of coz, I still possess a mind that generates rational thoughts.


Sticky tape won't kill ppl. No worries.


Had this Premonition of falling sick again.

I felt extremely ashamed of myself when Poh Siew came over yesterday night.

Mom was in the living room alone with the tv on.

Poh figured out immediately that MY mom looked depressed. She asked if I knew what was going on.

It struck me then- what a horrible daughter I was.

A friend who'd seen my mom only a couple of times, telling me that MY mom looked like she's in great distress. And then there's me- insensitive daughter of 18 years.


After sending Poh off... I came back home and spoke to my mom.
She talked to Canida and I for quite sometime.
My heart aches for her.

I wouldn't, in a million years, be able to understand and feel the agonizing hurt that she is experiencing.

I hadn't been a good daughter, really. I felt utterly disgusted with myself.


I wish I could lift the load off her heavy-laden shoulders. But I cannot.

Only want her to make a decision that will make her upset no longer.
Whatever it may be, I'll support her, hands down.


I'm at lost what to do.

Pray Lord that she'll be fine.



And as for him. I wish he'd stop rotting and come to his senses, If he, indeed has at least some goodness in him.


"I do not wish to cultivate ultimate hatred for you. But it certainly IS most difficult to condone what you've done. Sometimes I just wish you'd rot in hell. Although I know in my heart that as long as I live, harbouring such an evil thought, I'll be in hell with you the day I breathe my last. But I still wish it. That's how much I love you."


I'm only hoping for the better. I'm praying. The Lord is there for us, always.


When all else around crumbles, even when the soul in you is slowly withering away, He is the only one we can depend on. There's still hope though. I believe that- in Him, all things are possible.

What can I do?

Why is he the way he is?

Was he not regretful for the things he'd done?

How did he feel watching her in distress?

What has she done to deserve all these?

What can I do to make it all better?

What is it gonna be now?

How will it all turn out in the future?

"We've nothing to do with you." Will it mean anything to him?

Forgive.
Not as easy as it was to spell it out.

Repent.
How willing are we to do so?

Trust in Him. And HE will guide us thru. The Lord will provide. He knows us.


How now, can i bring myself to love him? It is not possible.
Forgive?
I'll need great strength for that.


I wish i could wipe away your tears and make it all better.
But i do not know how to.


I wish I were a much better person. I'm working on it.



Make the right decision.
Then again... what's the right one?




How i wish it wasn't such a grave mistake- the day you set your eyes upon him.

The girls and I took a day off and went shopping at Bugis. Again.

Reb, Aman, YJ, Gdine and I.
I bought stationaries!

It's been a long time since I've shopped for stationaries. As in... really shop for them. I spent...


*checks the receipts

$39 dollars on stationaries today.



I bought a really pretty organiser. I know. It's the first organiser I've EVER bought. It's like 17 bucks! I wanted a plain black one. But they didnt have it there. All they had were really fanciful ones. Yucks. I ended up buying this white base, polka-dot-ified one.
Then there're stocks to replenish. My pencil case is full again. Gotta get a new one.
MY wallet is too BIG. It looks empty now. Gotta get a new one too.


Amanda wanted to to take a picture with this guy who was tending one of the push-cart stalls. Which was rather silly. Coz his Girlfren (whoever of the two gigglin girls stationed within a 2 m radius) was there! Our brave omonim flirted with the idea and have decided to back off instead. Heh. Smooth move.


The journey home was crazy, like always.







Like always, I have to be the dumbass. I just had SUPER glue on my fingers! Was trying to stick some fabric together for AMB project. I had some dripped onto the floor- ethanol doesnt wrk on it.
I had some on my thumb and index finger. They ALMOST got stuck together! Thank God i wasn't all that dumb. I tried to "tear" them apart as quickly as i could before the glue sets in.
Ouch.

Im typing with glue-coated fingers. Feels scaly to me.

I have this obsessive craving for coke right now. Not the sludge. But coke as in coca cola.
Gone are the days of cravings for oh-so-chocolatey chocolates. At least for now.

I just feel like drinking barley too. The brewed one of coz.
And ice cream.
And coke.
Cold, fizzy. The very coke kind of coke? Know what i'm saying?


I think i just ate alot over the past few days. Ate alot. Shopped alot.
Mom stuffed us with lotsa food. And we just kept buying things.

Ate alot. Shopped alot.



I'm so sick of shopping.

I caught "I NOT STUPID TOO" just now.

I was surprised at the number of ppl in the theatre. I never really liked Jack Neo's production. Him being the director and all... Even the title of the movie turns me off. If you notice, most of his movies have horrible names.

But i must say- This is one movie that made me cried and laughed so much at the SAME TIME.

I'm serious!

One moment I'm drowning in tears and mucous, the other, I'm aching with laughter.

Truly inspiring. Touched my heart greatly. It's so real too!


I've learnt so much during the 2 hours or so.

One of which- A rotten apple shouldn't be thrown away, coz you'll be left with nothing. Rather, keep that which is not rotten, from there, may you gather what's left that is good.

And something that goes like- If trash is thrown into the rubbish dump, it remains as useless as the garbage itself. But if they were'nt discarded in a haste, they may be a form of good resource.

And lots of other things that generated an amazing pool of thoughts.


It's been worth every cent, the movie.
Typical. But sooo true.

I think i had no choice but to use my shirt-wiping away tears and mucous flowing ABUNDANTLY down my face. Eeww...
The guy beside me was trying his best NOT to cry.
That was something. What's with guys anyway?



I'm gonna go Malacca in the afternoon. Travelling by car again. Ugh... i hate travelling such long distance in a car especially. Just the thought alone makes me car sick already.

We had guests over on Monday and today.

I ate so much. And still not stopping.


Just received a letter from Ngee Ann. It's about the Industrial Attachment Programme.

Guess where am i going!!!



I'm goin to BIOPOLIS!

oh my, oh my!
I couldn't contain my excitement. BIOPOLIS!
Proligo Singapore Pte Ltd. At the HELIOS building!
I wonder what will I be assigned to do there...
I did a check up on the company, they produce siRNA, oligos containing LNA, LighCycler probes, Molecular Beacons probes and Scorpion probes.
Basically, all the probes and RNA, DNA oligonucleotides and la di da.
BIOPOLIS. I wish I work there next time! I don't think I can ever be Dr Lee(oh my, doesnt that sound wow-ie?) but still... I want to work there!!!

I felt a lil sorry for Gdine though. The company which she's attached to is located at Lim Chu Kang, which is like sooo deserted and ulu.

Damnation. I'm suppose to go school tmr for project discussion. Bother bother.