Ought to thank Benjamin- a benjamin i don't even know of.

But because of him, i get to go for the CONCERT! whoo~!

Nice one!

The Singapore Symphony Orchestra performed, with guest performer- Stephen Hough.
As part of the Singapore arts festival.

The SSO is not bad!

Stephen Hough played A Rachmaninov's piece- Rhapsody on a theme of Paganini, Op. 43

It was Beeee-u-teee-fool!
*applause.

Next time i must go watch the SSO's performance. Support Singapore's orchestra! How i wish i were part of it. (like it's only ever gonna happen if i continue dreaming bout it.)


oh ya! i forgot to mention the CONDUCTOR! he totally cracked me up. But sad thing was i cant luff out loud. Sians.. He's so funny. Maestro Lan Shui. Lan Shui- literally translated as blue water. Not-rotten water. nice name. Cute conducting skills.



just reached home and had a bath. Had to go over to gdine's to borrow her sleeping bag for BRAT. Good thing there was still 242 bus service arnd. it was like, past twelve.. and i had to walk over to gdine's.. such a long way. Met alot of xiao qiangs along the way..She ought to thank me and kiss my feet tmr morning.


She's gonna go away for camp! Mixed feelings bout it. But heck, i dun care. She's BRAT.

Aiyoo.. must go thru the CF stuffs again. Super sians.

What's my life without my Lord?

Lonesome, neglected and Lost.

What will i do without my Lord?

i'd rather die than to think of such.

What would become of this lost soul?

Eternal fire it will endure.

Speak ye, lost soul.

Lord i pray for strength. This world is not my home. Whate're betides, sol it shall be.
Lonely i am, no longer will be. Weary i am, You shall carry me thru. Erring's inevitable, thou will deliver me still.


God will see you thru.

Whew~~

now a residing at jurong west, blk 632, #05-284

Living in dust.

Sniffing paint.

Renovation works going on very other day.


Im leeching my neighbour's wireless connection... (what a way to announce my existence in the neighbourhood.) -.-


Im so not used to this house and this area.

Moving Sucks.

It's already two am and i JUST had my bath!

Been sleeping late this holiday.

Mom always pack those stuffs up till the wee hours of the morning. And i always get to bathe only after midnight!


Went to the house this afternoon. They had the paint on. Mom was really fussy and fickle minded. So... as finicky as she IS... she wanted the paint to be coated over with white.

Not really her fault..

Apparently, Mr Skinny-ass THOUGHT that beige was nice. But Mom thought otherwise. She wanted WHITE. So... Skinny-Ass tried to manipulate her into takin Beige, which is sorta like just a lil off-white.

bla bla bla~

Then presto!

Mom came home and started yakking on the phone.

*yak yak yak*

Finally, she wanted to change the colour. As if it doesnt cost a cent.

Heck not! She as to pay an ADDITIONAL few hundred bucks (for PAINTING alone, which already cost over a thousand.) just coz of her fastidious nature!

All the hassles and yakking. She brought brat, me and aunt Frances over to see. I thought it was alrite. so i didn't ask for any changes. Save money, save the effort.



Went for the CF bbq at the FES building. Not many Freshies came though.. But was alrite.
everything went fine. Only thing was i practically got marinated with the smoke.
*stinks


came home, we all packed finish everything except the daily necess-aries.

i feel so helpless man.. Monday moving into a house with practically nothing.

REALLY nothing. Except for the floor and toilets.

We're so behind schedule. Guess what?!

The lights are not up, neither are the air cons nor fans.


Someone please tell me this is not happening.



Worse still. School's starting soon. Where am i goonna put my stuffs?!

Ive no desk! No lights! No Nothing!



*depressed

i really ought to go up to mr Skinny-Ass and ask him let us stay at his home till our house is done. He was the one who messed things up. He disregarded his responsibility for overseeing the renovation works and MAKE SURE everything's right on tract.

Im gonna suffer more than i thought i wud.

Someone please fetch a mallot and land it on my head! HARD.


I just have to post these dwn here.

NEVER trust your relatives with absolute important things. UNless.. they are given good testimonies.

She stared, eyes wide with fury, at the workers. Still, she didnt lose control.

I looked at mom, then at the confused workers.

Then the house.

I marvel at the fact that mom was still poised and composed.

Unbelievable.


Those PYGMIES! WEenies!


Unbelievably SLOW!

Lookin at their dopey faces, i cudnt help but feel sorry FOR MY MOM.

I dunno is it coz MR LIM KEr LONG(or whatever his name is) is too stupid or lazy to get the workers right on track, complete things as they shud be...

OR

is it that Mr Lim thinks my mom's a push over..

Either way, HE SHUD MAKE AN EFFORT TO OVERSEE EVERYTHING AND FREAKING make sure we're not behind schedule!

Apparently, Mr Skinny-Ass didn't bother to make my mom a happy customer.

What's MORE.. is that.. Mr Skinny-Ass-smart-aleck-but-no-doubt-disorganised is sooooo slow.. soooooooo dreadfully slow to the extent that we're WAY WAY WAY behind schedule.

We're gonna move in on thursday. 29th i think. Mom postponed it and made the "MOVERs" ppl mad.

Im gonna live in a hse.. with practically NOTHING. Except for the air con, (not even my fan will be done), the floor, the toilets.

There u have it!

And worse ever.. is that mom and brat are goin overseas on the 7th to 11th of june. LEAVING ME behind all alone in that almost empty hse!!!!!!!!!!!!


*depressed*

*lonesome*

*abandoned*

*neglected*

Awfully awfully dismayed by Mr Skinny-Ass's way of meeting deadlines. Evidently.... irresponsible.

Who suffers?


US!


Now, how can that be justified?!


And we're paying like ALOT.

We're customers!


Mr Skinny-Ass is not doing his job- overseeing the renovation works.


grrr..

And mom cant really voice out her discontentment. Coz... Mr Skinny-Ass is her nephew.

*prepares a voodoo doll

nephew.. My mom's eldest Bro's eldest son.

*hangs a tag : Skinny-Ass-unbelievably-disoraginsed-contractor

my cousin in other words...

*Pins and needles. No area to be spared



"Let the poking commence."

Curses!

Dratted weather! Bummer..


Where exactly is the sun when u nd it!?

!@#$%^&%$#@!@#$%^&*(

Super pissed at the sun. *pouts

Friggin semester is starting and i still havent went swimmin and tannin!


Wan, Ire and i were goin for a swim at sentosa today... NOT!!!


They've suggested a movie instead. *sigh*
School's startin soon. Guess i'd better go out with them lest we all get so busy and they'll start missing me ever so much agn.


Stupid weather.



i learnt new words today!


They are synonyms of MIDGET.
Diminutive, Lilliputian(i wonder if it'd derived frm the Lilliputs of Gulliver's travels), Pygmy.


Hmm.. i guess the weather isnt that horrid afterall. Cooling, dreary...
But then again, it spoiled my initial plans for today.


im gonna...


Go watch tv.
WatchtvWatchtvWatchtvWatchtvWatchtvWatchtvWatchtvWatchtvWatchtv.

Did i mention sumtin bout the weather?



Stupid weather.

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 80%

Gluttony: 60%

Envy: 40%

Greed: 20%

Pride: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 34%

You will die with your hand down your underwear, watching Star Trek.

How Sinful Are You?

You Are 30% Normal (Occasionally Normal)

You sure do march to your own beat... But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at all You think on a totally different wavelength And it's often a chore to get people to understand you

How Normal Are You?

Your Survivor Palau Twin is Ian

http://www.quizdiva.net/survivorpics/ian.jpg"> %20color="#000000">Goofy, but an all around nice person. The Napolean Dynamite of Survivor!

Are You From Survivor Palau?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Mondaymondaymondaymonday.

Total humdrum this morning. Slept at five.

Preached the word of God to Des till bout 3 plus this morning.

Cudnt get to slp coz my tummy was totally UN-Filled.

Of coz..i shud not be sinful, so i had to blot out the idea of having EARLY early breakfast.

Woke up bout 12 just nw.

Aunties came over.. The adults are yakking dwnstairs. Shant be a part of it.

Did some silly quizzes. Got the link frm Wen~

A few funny ones.


Survivor Palau tonite!

I hope either Ian or Tom wins.

Have the urge to check out who's the actual winner. But it'll only spoil that teeny tinge of mystery...

Worship this morning- He lingers.

Who lingered?

Lot.

Why?


He was a foolish man. Bah~~
God had sent messengers to tell him(and his family) to flee from Sodom which is gonna be destroyed by fire and brimstones. Yet, he lingered. Is he acting like a dolt or what?


Lesson learnt- Do not be a dimwit and act like a dunce.

Haha.. just kidding.

Lesson learnt- Hmm.. We should no longer linger. Lingering is dangerous. Life-threathening. Be decisive! while u stare into space, lingering... u wun know what may become of u the next moment!

James 4:14 - Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.

Mom's chatting with Big Sis now.. joining them later.

Gotta sort out some stuffs.

Did three rounds of WASHING (on the machine), and hanging out the laundry(this, with my own hands), under the sweltering heat!

Made many many many phonecalls. Got many many rejections.. Some numbers are wrong. and most of them didnt pick up. Come on man.. what's a phone for when no one picks it up?

Another busy week ahead.
....



Brat of a sis is back.


Goin ovr to Vic's soon.

Whee~~ Finally caught Kingdom of Heaven.

Not too bad.. Kinda like a documentary, nt an explicit one though.

Orlando BLOOM!!!

Arghx.. just had my bath.. movie ended like almost 12 am.

*yawns

Brain freeze.


Supposedly goin to sentosa with wanwei. But there wasnt much of a sun.. So.. we went to Bugis Village and Parco bugis.

Shopping shopping shopping..

Walked dwn to North Canal, and into settlers. WW did sum stuffs there and we played a game of SUMTIN.. Some sorta like a scrabble thingy...
Doesnt matter.. bottom line is- I won!


Went to Jurong point (Again.............) we met up with sooeng and chatted over dinner..


Read at the lib for over an hour till mom came.

CAUGHT A MOVIE! Wheee~~

i wanna watch TV!



TVTV
TVTV
TVTV
TVTV
TVTV!!!


Oh man.. brain freeze. No idea what time to report to sch. Is it 8 or 9?!


Happy Birthday VIC.






The Lord had blessed me yet again.

Rejuvenate!!!!!!!

i nd something to gimme energy..

Just had my bath not long ago.. Did my hmwrk.. doing the rest tmr morning.
Sians.. gota reach sch at nine am. Gonna set up the booth for CF.

This whole week is dedicated to CF.


Maybe gonna go sentosa instead of the zoo. Wanna get a tan and a gd swim. ^-^

Val and Ben came bk to singapore already! Whee~~


Arghx.. mom threw away lotsa LOTSA lotsa stuffs..


I wudnt be surprised if they mount up to bout over thousands of dollars. For example: she conveniently chucked a green sling bag. A POLO sling bag! Imagine! POLO..

I salvaged it of coz! I picked on some of the rubbish she threw away. Maybe i can donate it to some organisation or sumtin. Some are pretty new!


The hse is in an utter mess!



Yikes. I feel like moving soon. But the new hse sint gonna be any better. Renovation mite be done only like.. at the end of June. -.-



sians. I've been living on junk food for the past few days. Cant go exercise coz of me stupid foot.



Bugger.. wanna watch tv!!!!



TvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTvTv!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damnation!

Mom's still clearing away stuffs at this hour. I only got to have my bath. -.-

It has already been days man.. My ALREADY dark eye bags are gettin worse. It's so bad i have to apply concealer when i go out. Arghx.. tHE AgoNy!!

Still gotta do brother tommy's homewrk.. Summore LF committee meeting brought forward to this sunday.. which means, i have to fin reading (thoroughly) the book of Titus!

EEEEeeks!

Curses! This week is a helluva week!

Went for CF meetin this morning. I am in charge of doin the survey questionnaire..
Thank God im free on tuesday.

Wed to sat occupied. Yikes. Im only free on tue this whole week! Oh ya.. then bu tmr, i have to do fin my hmwrk. T_T I still have BCC-lesson EIGHT!
*sobx*


Someone please do my hmwrk for me!


I wanna watch TV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


tvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvTV!!!!!!



I wanna watch movies too..


moviesmoviesmoviesmoviesmoviesmoviesmoviesmoviesmoviesmoviesmoviesmoviesMOVIES!!



i feel like a snake. My skin is peeling again.. eeeks =S

The problem of EviL

The Problem of Evil:


Definition of Terms:

Intrinsically Good: What is good in and of itself, and an end and not merely as a means to an end. (Mt 19:17) Vital to the proper answer … is the recognition of God’s purpose in creating man; viz., sonship (with Himself) and, concomitantly, for brotherhood (with his fellow-man).
Thus, whatever is filial and fraternal is intrinsically good. It is intrinsically good to believe in God, to love God, to honor God, to obey God. Whatever is filial and/or fraternal can never, under any circumstances, be evil.

Intrinsically Evil: Only that … which is unfilial and/or unfraternal. It is intrinsically evil to reject God, to fail to love God, to rebel against God, to refuse to honor and to obey God, to be self-centered rather than God-centered. It is intrinsically evil to fail to be a son of God, to be out of fellowship with God. It can never be good in any sort of circumstance, to be unfilial and/or unfraternal.



Instrumentally Good: That which helps to bring about or to bring to pass that which is filial and/or fraternal is instrumentally good. To say something is instrumentally good is to say that it is good as a means, not that it is good as an end within and of itself.




Instrumentally Evil: That which hinders that which is filial and/or fraternal.



Valued: What is to be valued? Only that is properly valued which is either intrinsically good or instrumentally good. Nothing which is either intrinsically evil or instrumentally evil should ever, under any circumstance, be valued. (AAA, p87, 88)




Evil: Sin is the only evil. This thus avoids the view that God Himself uses evil means – natural calamities, animal pain, and human suffering – to attain good ends. Thus, God is not blameworthy in any sense. (AAA, p98)




Natural Calamities:

How we view this world assuredly has an impact on how we view natural calamities. Our world is never intended to be our eternal home. Rather, it’s the vale of soul-making.
The total situation (of the world) is one which is ideal as an environment in which man can freely accept or reject God’s invitation to become and live as a son of God and as a brother to man – that is, in harmony with God’s will as revealed in the Scriptures. God’s purpose in creating the world is thus a justification of the possibility of natural calamities, animal pain, and human suffering.
To be an ideal environment for soul-making, our world must be characterized by law or regularity of response and be of such a nature as to allow man to learn something of its conditions of response. … nothing sub-human is intrinsically evil; only a being with the capacity to be both a son of God and a brother to man and to do that which contradicts sonship and brotherhood can be guilty of that which is intrinsically evil. Thus, … trees, water, wind, mountains, deserts, shifting of the earth, rain, etc. – or even dogs, cats, tigers, lions, leopards, and snakes, etc. – cannot be evil per se or be guilty of evil.




It might be asked, “What contribution does an earthquake which destroys twenty thousands (including many infants) make to ‘soul-making’?” Although we may (due to the limitation of our knowledge) not be able to explain completely every instance of such destructive forces, it should be clear that God is not blameworthy for having created a world in which such events occur. This is the case because God has a morally justifiable reason for having created such a world. [AAA, p57-58]




It must be remembered that God did not create the world to be man’s permanent home but to be merely his temporary ‘vale of soul-making,’ the environment in which man’s one and only probationary period is to be spent. In this connection, it is good for man to realize that his life on earth will be brief (i.e. it is certain that his life on earth will end), and that the exact time of that end is uncertain. Such natural calamities … are of such a nature as to provide man with reminders of these two important facts. This is not to say that such events force (in the sense of overwhelming so that there is no alternate choice) man to the acceptance of these views. But they afford conclusive evidence for such, provided one will use properly his own free will. The realization that one’s life on earth is both certain (as to the fact that it will end) and uncertain (as to the exact time that end will occur) should lead men to give most serious thought to the questions of God and the proper response to him. The destructive power and the uncertainty of such events should serve as a reminder to man that this world is not his permanent home. This, too, could play a vital role in an environment designed for ‘soul-making.’



The element of uncertainty as to the persons who will suffer loss from such events can also play an important role in ‘soul-making.’ If one could be certain that he could avoid all such calamities by becoming a son of God (and living in submission to his will), this certainty could be a great obstacle to one’s deciding to love and to submit to God from the proper motive (thus becoming a true son of God). … He wants man to act because of love for him – no matter how great a price might have to be paid for such obedience. God would have men to choose suffering over sin. (Heb 11:24-26; Rev 2:10) So the uncertainty as to what persons (infants, righteous men, wicked men) will be struck by such calamities can be a vital constituent element in the total situation which is man’s environment for ‘soul-making,’ his temporary environment, not his permanent home. [AAA, p58-59]

Only complaints

Everyone is goin away. Great..

Just went to the airport this morning to send the gang off to taiwan. Good riddance. Chuck their web enrolment thing for me to handle... not that i loathe being helpful.. But i just realise ricky forgot to include his student ID and password in the mail! Dammit.. How am i to know what is his password!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh no... just hope aman will call me from taiwan on friday.


I dun even know which to choose.. Events management or health and lifestyle???
And ive to log onto like seven diff NpAL account for the whole day on friday.. Haha. im gonna be a "pro web enrol-ler".

Super irritated..
Brat is chanting some idiotic phrase. Feel like slapping her. !@#$%^%$#@! If she doesn't shut her trap soon. im gonna shove sumtin into that HUMONGOUS mouth of hers. !@#$%^$#@!#


so many things at hand! I haven freakin packed my stuffs in my freaking room. There're so many frigging things to clear! Stupid closet. So full of crappy clothes. Im gonna throw at least half of my silly wardrobe. It's so darn messy rite now i dun even wanna look at it.


Had the leadership "training" today at sch. May Fern just kept talkin and talking and talking.. We're so behind schedule..she kinda droned on and on about almost the same things.What she has to share may be edifying.. but still! Just wish she'll be more concise! That'll certainly lengthen our attention span. i caught shaun dozing off.. -.- .. even I had really did my Best-est to keep awake.



This holiday is so sucky.. Full of calamitous events, dolefulness and boredom!! The weather totally adds an extra spark to it.


Everyone is going away. Mom's busy.. the gang took off.. gdine's having camps.. Irenes' also goin for camps.. The rest are busier still.. And im stuck with chores and more chores! Ive got quite a few issues and i just cant seem to put words to them.

Cant even go for a run. Foot still kinda hurts. Dratted foot! When am i gonna be able to run again?



Blasted weather..


Bloody zit...



Ugh... im so full of grievances. Feel like making a call and just go on and on with the complaints. Ive loads to complain about! I just cant stop rattling on.


A part of me wishes brat will still be chanting the irritating phrase, so i can just scream at her.


Then there's this someone. Im not being mean, but i got kinda irritated.. Im trying my best not to show it. Am i really bad at that? It's not like im using my friggin cell phone 24/7. So what if i reply like a few hours late? Not like it's sumtin urgent.. If it's sumtin urgent, he can jolly well DIAL my freaking number! And it's almost ALWAYS the trivial-est little things.. What? now im his mom? Gets so irksome to the extent that i just feel like asking him to sod off and get a life.

!@$%$#@!



Okies.. now im turning nasty.. shan't go on.




Actually... im alrite with it.. Im not extremely angry or that i really loathe him. Just that i FEEL the need to let it out. Rather peevish these days. Mayb i shud just stay home and clear my stuffs.




Starting with the blasted wardrobe.





Im still not done.. Have i mentioned the bloody weather? The oppressive heat! Dratted sun! Meking me feel ever so cranky, and i snap at almost anyone & anything. Ranging from my comb to the toilet flush. i didnt snap at ppl, so it's like, when things go wrong, i curse under my breath, acting somewhat like a grumpy old woman... Exactly! Darn.. Im turning into some grumpy old woman.. The last thing i want is brat to sneak up on me and start chanting a new irritable phrase. Just the thought of it mks me wana go over her room and just... SHAKE her vigorously.




Phew..Ive got so much more to write...

I guess my foot's kinda better. At least i can walk rite now. Small teeny-weeny steps. Painstakingly slow......................

Oh man.. How did i get myself into this mess?!

Yesterday was horrid man.. Mom was busy packing stuffs already. And i cudnt be of much help. Yes, of coz she was fuming. Hey, it's not entirely my fault i had this injury! Not like im not in pain. Almost every step i tk, i wince in pain.(somehow or another). Imagine walking up and dwn the stairs. That's a real chore!

Getwellnowgetwellnowgetwellnowgetwellnowgetwellnowgetwellnow..

Now i totally will appreciate my gd health. Especially my right foot.

Ruiqi reminded me... Our bodies are temples of God. I shud kp mine in tip top condition.
Missed worship on sunday. Missed the excursion. Missed almost lotsa things.


Stupid brat still in bed. Oh well.. better go get her brkfast done. Maybe if she's still nt awake by then, i'll stuff them all into her mouth. Muahaha~~