Last day of Semester ONE

I'm definitely Light HEADED! Whoo~

Was one BUSY BUSY day.

Apparently, i was so confident of gettin at least 60 for today's inorganic Physical chem paper.. But erm.. when i actually faced the paper... Strudels and blueberry pie!

If she's gonna pass me.. i'll be so glad man..

I slept like 2 hrs coz of the paper. Damnation. Was trapped in the hse coz brat from home din lock the door properly and the door got jammed!!!!

*panick panick*

And i had to climbed outta the window. Grrr..

I cant believe Roy, rick and ben actually stayed up WHOLE nite.

After the freaking paper, Yijia, Amanda, gdine and i caught House of Fury. I'm positive.. Stephen Fung is so... erm.. i dun wanna use CUTE. That's not the word to use on him.

Gdine was like "My hubby!!!" -.-

Nvr in a million years gdine!

After which, we headed for the hairdresser's. Was a lil late for the appointment. Layered and thinned my hair a lil more.

I cudnt believe how much hair ive got if nt for my own eyes.. It was as if half of whatever amt of hair i have were on the floor. Practically from where i sat, the floor below was soooooo HAIRIFIED! I feel that my head is so much lighter now. Kinda dry though. Hopefully by june i'll be able to get rid of all my damaged hair.

Feeling ever so glad exams are over.

Can't wait to move house for now.

If everything happens for a reason.. I'd very much like to know the reason behind the presence of these UNWANTED zits on my face! Certainly not for beautifying purposes! Ughx.. cant get rid of them. Drats.

One more paper to go. Inorganic chem. I hope, i really hope i Remember everything. What a likely dream.

This holiday is gonna be so YUCK.

Im gonna move house. Strudels and raspberrypie! Things to clear, things to clear and MORE things to clear. Things to buy, things to buy, and MORE things to buy. Hassles!

I'd better go work out after the exams. I nd all the strength i ever need.

Feeling rather anaemic. =S Maybe i shud just tk iron tablets. But i'm gonna forget everything that i nd to do if im gonna tk it for good. It might do me more harm than good... Bugger.

*In a dilemma*

Everything's in a mess.

Sort them out, sort them out, sort them out...

The worse thing that cud happen is to be left home alone for 5 days. And that's what gonna come to pass.


My life's never better.

If there's one thing i learnt today. It's- Never let history repeat itself.

I'm freakin pissed at myself. Such an idiot. When will i ever learn!!!

*sigh*

Arghx.. Stuck at home. Just when i was about to get outta of my home for the sharing at Bro Eddy's, i found out that my keys are in mom's car. canida took off with her set off keys. Great!

Held prison. Ugh..

Microbio is such a pain. Mr chow doesnt knw hw to teach. Past yr papers' questions are relatively tough. I have to memorise every EVERy single detail to get an A.

Now im stuck at home staring at structure of Prokaryotes, Fungi.. etc..

Shud've just climbed outta the window. Heex.

6 more chapters to memorise. I need more brain food! Maybe i can drink oil. Wahahaha~

Sudden cravin for chocolates.. which reminded me of last sem.. =S

chatted with Jessica for bout 3 hrs. =) Talked bout lotsa funny stuffs we used to do. Memories~~
She and wanwei were luffin bout the "I hugged the coconut tree".. -.-

Oh well. Hope to see them soon! Very soon!

Saw the new ceiling fan. Bought some lights..


Next on the list- table lamp, painting and a nice clock et cetera to go..

Microbio isn't easy afterall!

Mr Chow didnt do his job well.. Im positive bout that now.

Still deciding on the colours in my room..

Arghx.. Help!

I heard a frog!

Math Paper.
No. Of INCOMPLETE questions:4
two hours isnt enuff.

Kumar and Wenzhi.What's with these two Goofies?
Kumar - stranded on a puny little island,
Wenzhi - Puny little sleepyhead with a stupid alarm clock which doesn't know its functions.

My status: Balding
Floor: Hairific
Next project: Collect all the hair i've dropped for the past few mths and put them together to form a wig. -.-


Im not gonna comb my hair again. As much as i can help it. Wonder what my hairdresser will say.. Two days without combing, still counting. Hope i wun ever have to comb agn. Combing only makes ur hair detach frm ur scalp! U SHUD STOP combing too!!

Acne outbreak.
Dark eye bags.
Messed up hair.
Screwed up math paper.
Gained 0.5 kg.
Brain freeze.
Listening to... croakin of the freakin frog lurkin sumwhere. Spotted a silly 'acnefied' fat cow in my mirror.


Just dawned on me that - My life is sooo exciting.

*Hallelujah.

Still thinkin bout my new room and the examination.

racking my brains over silly math questions. Haven't i anything better to do than to face these freakin numbers originated from Arabia?!

Man.. i think i've no life at all...

Everyone else has something to think about. My head's just like the spongy mesophyll....

Im sooo excited!! Mom has sorta agreed that having my room the way i want it to be mite be a gd idea afterall.. Can't wait to see how it goes.

Went to church today. Spent the whole afternoon with mom at the furniture mall.. She bought a very cute painting. Kinda ex. But it's really nice. She started off by saying "This will look gd in ur room." I totally cudnt contain my excitement. But seconds after, "i think i mite as well place such an expensive piece of work in the living room!"

-.-


Arghx.. anyways, i feel that my new room is gonna turn out great. It's giving me headaches currently. Pray that it'll go well.. the new home.

Meetin up with the designer tmr. Hope mom will ask me along.


Though im in the state of mind.. i feel like my body is breaking down.. Kinda anaemic at the moment.

The lady at Mcdonalds

Depicted from a true story>>


I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.
The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.
Her last project of the term was called "Smile." The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway, so, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally. Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son. We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did. I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved. As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was "smiling".His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.
He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been clutching. The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation. I held my tears as I stood there with them. The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted. He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes. That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action. I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand. He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, "Thank you." I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope." I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope." We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give. We are not church goers, but we are believers. That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand. I turned in "my project" and the instructor read it. Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?" I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class. She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my husband, son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student. I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn: UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.>>

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read >this and learn how to LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE. There is an Angel sent to watch over you.. An Angel wrote:Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head. To handle others, use your heart. God gives every bird its food, but He does not throw it into its nest. We Live To Learn, We Learn To Live This Moment Is THE Moment!






Now, when i read this. Not only did it struck me once again how blessed I am, but i feel guilty of having neglected my spiritual life.
Many times i ponder over Mattthew 6:33-
But seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness,all these things shall be added unto you.

It's really not easy. Nobody ever said living a life as a Christian is easy. But we must put God first in our lives. Anything be prior to Him, they'll be our idols.
I have fallen into Idolatry.

God is ever loving me and i have taken it for granted. If Christ were to come today.. Frankly speaking.. i do not know what to say to Him. This is grave danger.

Everyday, ill pray for God to grant me strength. I wish no longer to be an idolator and i pray that He'll guide me thru. I guess i've not been doing my part as a Christian. I need to bring the gospel to others. I'm fully aware and ashamed that i myself, have neglected my spiritual life.

The Lord has been mindful of me and YOU of coz..

He'd accepted me and im truly glad. He'll accept you and you'll be truly glad too.
His unconditional Love and Acceptance is something that NOTHING can measure up to.

*sigh*

Slept at like 5 am this morning. Took an overdosage of mind stimulating drug. Gdine was telling me that it has a half life of 5 hours etc and all that...

Was rolling about on the bed.prior to the effect of the drug, was my cramps. Then was Thinkin and thinking bout so many things..

If i had a choice. I'd choose not ever to exist. It's really unfair coz i din ask to be alive. I certainly do not wish to live in this sinful world. But then again, The Lord works in His ways.. I wun ever be able comprehend.

One thing that really irks me.. is that.. though all of us are here.. though some of us may be Christians.. But God has already chosen those who may be with Him for life eternal...

We do not know what's gonna be of us in future(for eternalty). But HE DOES!

So why cant it not be like.. ARGHx... i dunno how to describe it but it really irks me. It scares me. It's really scary..

The Lord loves ALL OF US. But if we do not obey Him, we'll be condemned.

SOMETIMES... seriously..
*slaps myself*
i cant help but wonder why this is so? He loves us but we'll be condemned for eternalty if we do not obey Him....

Thing is.. HE LOVES ALL OF US RIGHT? Unconditional love, Agape love.. Etc..

I dun get it. i really dont.

I shudnt be asking these and doubting Him.. afterall, im a nothing compared to Him. Arghx... i just dun get it.

Maybe i'll get it someday.. I just hope that day will be sometime soon.


To my friend who's reading this: Do Take sometime and think about it too! The Lord has blessed you thru and thru. We mustnt take His love for us for granted. What will you say when Christ be here agn? How will you be accountable for your life in this world?

Often, i ask myself these. out of say, ten times; Nine times, it'll freak me out. The other one time will be when i feel that im absolutely not worthy to be of any existence at all.

*sigh*

I'd rather be a unicelllar microoraganism than being a complex, multicellular being..

Gonna be late for meetin Gdine and the rest. I need some tea!!! i'll feel rejuvenated only after having it.. Am i addicted to caffeine or what?

two silly hillies beside a frigging FAKE car 

3 silly hillies 

Gdine's new beau.. Siinging Tenor.. Name: Aaron stalker? 

Autograph session. Somehow.. i dun think they should be doing that.. 

tried again.. but i guess i did better! 

This is me attempting to take a gd shot of the choir..  

Val and gdine bent on spoiling my camera 

Fullerton hotel.. taken by the bay at esplanade 

Yesterday was absolute fun!

Went to the Lodon community gospel choir's performance at the esplanade! The mosaic music festival is TERRIFIC! Went with Val, Rick, Gdine, Reb and Deb.

The choir was spectacular! The whole performance was spiritually uplifting and left all it's audience absolutely breathless. Whahaha. All of us danced, clapped and sang along. There were these few very enthusiastic caucasians seated in front of us. Totally awesome. Everyone was "affected". What can i say? Definitely not wise to miss it! We sang many songs. Whoo~The choir left its audience spiritually "high". The band was great too! I simply love the guitarist! He's SOooooooo cute!!!!! Practically screamed my head off. LOL. Even the blonde lady in front turned and raised her eye brow at me. HAHAHA!
But the guitarist was really good. I mean.. ALL of them were good!
All of us were made to sing. One of which, we sang "AMAZING GRACE" no instruments as accompaniment whatsoever. It was BEAUTIFUL. I remember the guitarist name. MICHAEL something.. Anways, Gdine is swooning over one of guy in the choir singing the tenor. Name is Aaron. She's nuts over him. Crazy girl.

There's a musical coming up. "Sound of Music". Really wish i can watch that!!!

*crossing my fingers* Hopefully not too expensive. but i doubt so...

*Sigh*

had the Scientific notebook test today. Wasn't so bad. Met up with Roy and Gdine to study this morning. Phew. Good thing i did.



Am still thinking of what to do with my new room. Mom asked what colour i'd like it to be. Said yellow but she said "NO!"

Said RED or black and she threatened not to come to my room. -.-

Arghx.. i want my room painted blue and my cabinets and table and all other craps to be yellow. NVM.

dun understd what's the point of ASKING me when she has already decided my room should be white.

Soooo.. im gonna design my room. Thought of sumtin actually.. but have to discuss it with her.

Arghx.. this holiday am gonna go shopping for stuffs for the new home.

*so excited*

Moving out probably by June. gdine, Raffie and Ricky offered to help ^-^

As much as i like the new home... i simply hate the thought of its location. Kinda secluded and inconvenient. And my my... im moving FURTHER from school. Curses!

Can see myself going shopping for groceries with gdine every now and then (after moving..) LOL.

Oh yea! Praise the Lord! Brat from my home has been baptised last tuesday 8th march 2005!!! Whoo~~~

*oh happy Day! When Jesus washed her sins away!* *Rejoice rejoice*

Stupid girl. Ask her to get baptised but always refused. AND out of nowhere, on a tuesday (particularly when i was doin my freaking project in sch), she wanted to be baptised... -.- I wasnt there to witness it! STUPID GIRL.

Anyways, am really glad for her. BUT i still think she's BRAT.

So much so for my new room.. am still thinking bout it..

My Home!

Mom said the house is sold and that we'll be getting our keys to our new home by 15th April. Arghx.. a part of me feels sad. Been in this house for ...reaching ten yrs.

*sigh* Memories... Some of which i still remember vividly..


The living room. we got the sofa changed once. Other than that, it's where i'll be after coming home frm sch. After Glady's went bk to Philippines.. I'm always alone at home after sch!! So lonely!! So i'll always be on the tv and have my eyes Practically Glued to the screen for more than 4 hours.. To the extent that mom had to get the SCV unsubscribed. ='( so sad. Nickelodeon was my fav channel!!


The balcony is the place where i dislike the most. Always asked to do the laudry there.. so sians lo..

Then the kitchen! I dun really like my kitchen.. Always happen to see lizards which nvr failed to freak me out. I do cookin there at times.. but i do lotsa washing there too! The kitchen is suppose to be stocked with much food. But in our home.. it's really quite empty.



Then there's this large area between the front door to the stairs. Really quite an "abandoned"ground. There're many ornaments there. Used to play balls with Canida around that area.. There's this picture of mom in a wedding gown. hanging on the wall that's so vacant. There was once when wanwei and caiping came over. There wasnt ayone else except us. So anyways, we were the only ones in the hse. Kinda freaky. Weather wasnt very sunny, was rather dark. What happened was, Wanwei and i got dwn to get some water. On our way up, wanwei tried to scare me. She stared at mom's picture and i did the same whilst she said sumtin stupid" Hey kareen, i saw ur mom's eyes moving."
I dunno what hit me but the next thing that happened was the two of us screaming at the top of our lungs and racing bk to my room. Caiping was completely taken aback by our screams. hahaha! was a silly one. Silly wanwei, tried to scare me but got scared instead.



I remember falling dwn the stairs this other time when Glady's was mopping the floor. Was running dwn to get my phonecall and fell! HARD! I hit a pot full of fake sunflowers. And blimey! There were two freaking little lizards in there (one grey, the other black) crawling towards me!!!!!! So gross! I completely freaked out!!!



My room's been renovated twice. Used to be creamy orange and peach. Now everything's white. Used to share it with CAnida and Glady's. Haha.. was really fun. Hai.. BUT When Sis moved out, CAnida moved into her room. Feeling that my room's kinda empty. I'd prefer sharing it. Oh yea, I din tk a pic of canida's room coz it's AWFULLY MESSY!!!! like a pig's sty. That horrible girl..
Not only that, she used to mess up the study room too! Maybe i do that too.. but anyways, we dun really use the study room, so it's kinda alrite... heex.


Mom's room.. used to jump on her bed.. hahaha. always tried to touch the ceiling by doin so. I think i can touch it now! CAnida and i used to bunk in with mom during weekends.. Coz her room is the only place with airconditioning. I cant really slp in an airconditioned room. The air gets too dry and i'll end up "suffocating". so what i did was.. in the middle of the night, when the air gets really dry, i'll go over to the door and breathe from the narrow space.. HAHAHA! totally silly..if i realy couldn't breathe, i'll end up sleeping in my room instead.. Speaking of airconditioning. mom said she's goona install aircons in every single room except the kitchen and toilets of our new home..
Doubt i'll be using my room's. Lotsa happenings around the house.. I remember groping in the dark early morning or at nite. Climbing the stairs with fear.. Coz in the dark.. i always thought i'll see a figure from the stairs that's not human.

Heex. And the toilet near my roomis freaky! The pipes make sounds! The one in mom's room has a bath tub but i seldom bathe using the tub. Kinda like wasting water. There're so many things i did in this house! Will miss it! Maybe not the stairs. haha. too many times have i climbed the stairs, thinkin" why cant we do away with the stairs? i hate to climb this stupid thing"



I'll miss my marble floor too!!!!!!!!!!


Guess by June or July this yr.. it's gonna be goodbye to Blk 471, Jurong West st 41 #06-495, Singapore 640471. I dun even know the new home's address. All i knw is that im not gonna like the location.

This is my room! Just a small portion of it.. cant get it into the whole shot 

This is the sideview of the kitchen. Will be visible frm the front door.. im not goin to tk a snapshot of the kitchen.  

This is near the door..  

This is the area just in front of the staircase 

This is the staircase! 

Wen, i'm moving like in June perhaps.

Was at Zilin's birthday party. Just reached home not long ago. Had fun today. Bought him a really cute paper holder.

Sermon by Bro Eddy this morning on Christian Fellowship.
After service, was schelduled to meet up with Gdine to get materials for Chem Pract presentation.. she was late!!! It didnt even get to her that the first thing to say when she sees me shud be "sorry i'm late." -.-
Collected my Smash watch today! Missed it greatly!!! Can wear my watch whilst bathing! Whee~~It's the only watch i ever dared to wear to the showers.

siewyuan and Gdine came ovr and we did the stuffs necessary for our project. Hope it goes well tmr. Stupid Ricky and Benjamin!!!!!! Called my phone and accused me of faking KAREEN. How absurd! I AM KAREEN! They kp insisting im gdine.. -.- so silly lor! Why shud i fake being myself. that's just ridiculous. Said they wanted to join NP strings.. No idea what came ovr them. But i was excited. Always wanted to be in Np strings. Due to many many hindrances, i had not much of a choice but to quit. Guess i mite be able to join them next semester!!

Meanwhile, i'd better think of what to get for my new room....

Ideas anyone?

*SigH*

My nose is running a little. Had to play in the rain during netball training today. Wasn't a big one, just enuff to make someone sick.
I think i screwed up in my OCOM presentation today. I exceeded the time limit by 2.5 minutes! Bugger.
Went for CF today! Finally found the strength to do so. Partly coz Darren had persistently asked me to go.. so i sorta had to.

We wrote encouraging words to one another. One of those which really took me by surprise was Donovan's and MayFern's. Really touched me greatly, in which i deeply appreciate. I hope my words had been edifying or of comfort to the rest of the CF-ers. Come to think of it, haven seen them for a while. Always skipping CF meetings. kinda feeling guilty about it.

May Fern said i still "owe" her a movie together. I suggested A Series Of Unfortunate Events, but she said NO! Grrr.. the next best thing to offer was Spongebob Squarepants Movie. obviously, the idea was rejected. She's so hard to please! =X

Mom just offered to pay for my ticket to the Mosaic Music Festival! I'm going for the one on the 15th this month. That'll be the London Gospel Choir performing. Really looking forward to it. Val, Rick, Reb, Deb, Gdine and myself will be going. Hopefully Ben and Raf will be going too. It should be a great performance. Really wish i cud go to the other performances at the festival.. But i guess one's quite enuff. shudnt be too greedy. ^-^

Ugh. had an acne outbreak again. So frustrating. wish i cud just peel off my face. Gd thing im not having blocked nose nw, i'll be making an attempt to tug my nose off if i do!

Grandma's still in hospital, Mom said she can't move her arm! That's seriously horrid. Pray Lord she'll be fine soon.

I saw a certain someone the other day. And Stupid RICKY!! arghx.. so very.. Indescribable . mixture of embarrassment and irritation. Not at ricky though. Much rather at myself.

Had chem lab yesterday. I wasnt clumsy or anyhing, thank God. Gdine was sick. i accompanied her to her family doc. All the way to Marsiling. We then decided to watch Howl's moving castle at Causeway point. Bad idea. Not because the show was horrid. But because we had already set a date with amanda and rafael. T_T

Amanda, im really sorry!! But seriously, i had to go to the hospital to see my grandma on tuesday. She broke her arm.. Pray Lord she'll recover soon. Gdine had to prepare for her OCOM etc.. that's y we decided to catch it on monday. So sorry that i pissed u off. U were online, but u blocked me! i felt so bad.. So anyways, thanks for forgiving me. ^-^ we go catch Spongebob on screen together alrite? Peace.


Yijia, Roy, Ricky, Amanda and jasmine are goin to taiwan!!! I cant go... so sad. Hope they'll get me something though enjoying themselves thoroughly by then. Meanwhile, i think im gonna go to the zoo with gdine.


Was having this splitting headache. must be the weather. Having muscle aches too! Played tennis on friday. Surprisingly, only five of us turned up! i guess i've nt taken enuff protein. still aching a lil. Was doin math and i just cant sit straight! in fact, my arms are aching.
In order to lose those irritating flabs, i'd to do aerobics... T_T killing my arm..

irenes, was thinking of asking u out. Let's go catch a movie and do some shopping. Let me know when u'll be free. ^-^